pricillia Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 (edited) I had to make the decision to put my dog to sleep which is something I never thought that I had to do but she was in pain and very old (15 years old) and had broken her leg and was probably not going to heal considering that she was having a hard time getting up and walking as it was. She was a friend to me and I even though I knew her time was close I was hoping that she would not die in pain as she did not deserve it al all. Devastaed is exactly what I am today knowing that I will not see her and be able to spend time with her. This was worse than letting go of my dad my mom, my grandmother because I didn't have to make the decision with them that I had to make with her, with them it came natuarally with her, I feel like it was not her time and I feel so bad and horrible and just don't feel like doing anything at all right now even though I need to go on but she brought so fun and love and kindness. I hope that she knew that I loved her and that she is out of everyday pain. I am sad angry and upset that she had to go through pain before she died it was so hard to see it is just playing over and over again in my head What a sad day Edited December 30, 2009 by pricillia
curiousnycgirl Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 You made a very difficult selfless decision to end her suffering. I know I was in a very similar position in August, but my dog was only 8. To this day I second guess myself, despite the fact that several vets called to offer condolences and tell me I did the right thing. It is one of the hardest things we do in our lives - make the decision to put a pet down. But then I thank G-d that we can end their pain and only wish someone could do that for me when needed. I am so very sorry for your loss. I know that words cannot ease yoru pain, but please take comfort in the fact that you did the very best thing for her despite the pain it is causing you, and that makes you the very best dog owner there can be. {{{{{Hugs}}}}} to you during this time.
JamesM Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 I understand your feelings of grief and pain. A few short years ago, our dog died in my arms. She was only seven. It is not easy losing a companion who is unlike what a human can be. There is a hole that will never be filled. Yet as hard as it is to see now, time will heal much of the pain and leave the memories. Today while I still think of her, I also smile as I think of our new companion who has made a new place in our hearts and has brought new life and smiles to our house. May you remember her with fondness and never let go of the memories.
HeavenOrHell Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 ((((((hugs))))) This is never an easy decision, even if you know in your heart it is the kindest thing to do. Please don't feel guilty about the pain she felt, it wasn't your fault and you made the right decision when you knew she was suffering, sometimes we don't realise straight away that it's the right thing to do, but time makes it clearer. She knew you loved her and she would have carried that love with her when she went to sleep I had to make the decision to put my dog to sleep which is something I never thought that I had to do but she was in pain and very old (15 years old) and had broken her leg and was probably not going to heal considering that she was having a hard time getting up and walking as it was. She was a friend to me and I even though I knew her time was close I was hoping that she would not die in pain as she did not deserve it al all. Devastaed is exactly what I am today knowing that I will not see her and be able to spend time with her. This was worse than letting go of my dad my mom, my grandmother because I didn't have to make the decision with them that I had to make with her, with them it came natuarally with her, I feel like it was not her time and I feel so bad and horrible and just don't feel like doing anything at all right now even though I need to go on but she brought so fun and love and kindness. I hope that she knew that I loved her and that she is out of everyday pain. I am sad angry and upset that she had to go through pain before she died it was so hard to see it is just playing over and over again in my head What a sad day
mickleb Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 So, so sorry to hear about your loss, priscillia. I fret about having to do what you had to, at times, as my beloved dog is now 14 and won't be with me forever. There is nothing more you could have done for her because, if there was, I'm sure it would have been done. What more could she have asked of you? She is out of her pain and she lived, with you, a wonderful, happy, joyful life. She was lucky. I think we would all like to imagine the very easiest exit routes for our pets and the humans we love but life, very sadly, is not that simple. All we can do, at these times, is our best. You have done this and, once you become accustomed to your loss, you will be left with the most wonderful memories of your contented, devoted friend. You might want to think about volunteering to walk an old person's pet, in the meantime, as this would help the dog and the elderly person very much and could advance the healing process. Perhaps you could put a card up in a shop window, or something. (Here, in Britain, we have The Cinammon Trust, which helps to set up walkers with owners - maybe you have something similar where you live?) Right now, though, take VERY good care of yourself as this is what she would want you to be doing. x
anne1707 Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 (((Hugs))) Pricillia I had to make that decision a few years ago with my cat and it was one of the hardest things I ever did. I also knew it was the right thing to do but that does not help much in the immediate few days. In time however the pain will ease and you will remember more of the good times. I think the pain of letting a loved pet go is a small price to pay for the years of love and happiness they can bring. Take care
PinkToes Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 pricillia, I am so very sorry for your loss. Have you ever read the poem, The Rainbow Bridge? You can google it, I have found it very comforting and it might help you as well.
JamesM Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 pricillia, I am so very sorry for your loss. Have you ever read the poem, The Rainbow Bridge? You can google it, I have found it very comforting and it might help you as well. Here is the video on youtube... And another... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QiADsg-cJ6E
trueblue72ny Posted December 31, 2009 Posted December 31, 2009 sorry you had to put your dog down pricillia. it was the kind thing to do.
madrugada Posted December 31, 2009 Posted December 31, 2009 Oh God, I'm getting emotional now. That is the toughest decision to make in the world. Two years ago I had to put down my best friend, my cat Gilgamesh. He was only five years old but came down with a problem that the vet couldn't fix. It started in the spring of 07, and at first he got better. But then in the fall he got sick again and I had to take him back to the vet. They kept him for two weeks, trying to fix the problem but they couldn't. I visited every day but it was so hard, when I would go into the kennel and he would crawl into my arms as soon as he saw me. The worst part was the last night before I had him put to sleep, there was a thunderstorm, and he was a fraidy cat about thunder, always wanting to be on my lap. I sat at home and cried, knowing he was in a cage at the vet. Then the vet said there was nothing he could do, I visited my cat one last time, held him in my arms, then had to walk up to the desk and ask for the form to sign. As soon as I walked out the door I broke down. I cried for days. I still miss him. I'm sorry you are going through this. Know you're not alone.
Author pricillia Posted December 31, 2009 Author Posted December 31, 2009 Thank you everyone, Pets are so wonderfull and become more than just pets they become a source of love and fullfillment, they are so cute and so much fun and I love thier souls, I fell in love with her when I first saw her and knew that she was the dog for me, we found eachother it was meant to be. I hope that I have a chance to share that special relationship with another wonderful soul.
Meaplus3 Posted December 31, 2009 Posted December 31, 2009 I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. I have been through the same things with a cat.. and it's very difficult. But, do know that your pup is up in puppy heaven looking over you. (((hugs))) Mea:)
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