xerofate Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 So I had to see my ex today. She came to pick up the baby. First time since the break up about a month ago. God she is still goregous. She used her fake voice with my mother. Acting as if nothing had changed. Acting as if she didn't do anything wrong. NEWS FLASH: You did do something wrong. It wasn't the break up that was wrong, if you do something wrong. It was the lying about your new boyfreind. The tugging me along, making me feel like I still had a chance. The cheating on me behind my back. There are a lot of things that you DON'T do during a break up, and she did them all. I don't know how I feel right now. I saw her, and I just bawled my eyes out. Now... I don't know if it's me getting over it, or if it's me just being numb... but I kinda just feel down. The huge pain in my chest is gone, the aching is gone.... but I feel... depleted. God this sucks.
survivor18 Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 Xero, i know exactly where you are coming from buddy and it sucks really bad. I also know all about the fake voice they use around others...really really annoying. I have been doing this for a while now because i pick up my kids at my exes who also happens to live with the guy she left me for. It was so tough in the beginning...like my heart was being step on every time i saw her. I was mentally and physically exhausted...really don't know how my body kept going but it did. Then i decided, you know what i am not gonna let her hurt me anymore. She hurt me so why should i allow myself to suffer anymore. So i would get the kids keep conversation with her to a minimum and started to look after myself better. You are gonna get through this man i guarantee it...it's gonna take more time but you will heal. Keep your conversations with her about the baby and that's it. She did you wrong remember that...you owe her nothing especially not what's left of your emotions. Be stong brother...there is light at the end of the tunnel and it will get brighter as you move along. PEACE
nobmagnet Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 She is faulse. To the core. How she could behave as if nothing had happened is something mine did. I just wanted to scream "hello sh*t head cant you see the f*cking mess you have left us in?????" Keep it to the minimum. I requested a 12 month calendar as to when he sees the kids so I dont have to communicate with him unless its an emergancy. Might be worth a try? hugs x
Author xerofate Posted December 30, 2009 Author Posted December 30, 2009 I would love to do a 12 month calender. Unfortunitly, both of us work in hospitals, and our schedules change constantly. Which is why I ended up seeing her. Her father got sick, and she was working nights. Father was supposed to baby sit, but he couldn't. He was gonna pick the baby up, but again, couldn't. So, she had to do it. And she was so fake. just so fake. My mother comes upstairs after she left and says to me "God, she is such a little bitch." My mother does NOT swear. I think that might have been the first time I ever heard my mom swear. Made me feel better to know that she was thinking the same thing I was. After she left, I texted her telling her that we would pick up at her house, so I didn't have to deal with her. Still, been a pretty ****ty day. What can I say? In time, things will heal. But for now? Now, I'm sucking. A lot! Thanks for the advice. Wich I could do the yearly schedule. I might be able to get a two week schedule, which I think is a great idea. an awesome one. I'll work on that next week. thanks!
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