shadowplay Posted December 29, 2009 Posted December 29, 2009 I've never been high before. Weed usually has little effect on me. Last night my boyfriend's roommate brought home some stuff that was a little too good. Suffice it to say I took one hit too many. Before I knew it, I was lying on bf's clinging desperately to a reality that was rapidly slipping. My eyes were wide open, but I wasn't awake. I couldn't feel any of my limbs. It was one of the worst experiences I've ever had. My bf was wonderful throughout. He stayed awake with me for 2-3 hours, stroking me, hugging me and continually reassuring me that everything would be okay. He was incredibly sweet. I did something blockheaded while I was on the upward incline, high enough for my inhibitions to be down but (unfortunately) not so stoned that I was totally incoherent. I started by asking him how much he likes me. He responded "honestly, you're like my favorite person in the whole world, Shadow." It was pretty flattering, because he comes from a tight knit family. Here's where I jumped the shark. I asked him if he is in love with me. He started breathing heavily, and then responded, "Almost." There was a pause and he said, "Yeah, I am...I do." I couldn't tell if he honestly meant it, or was just saying it to appease me. Then he added "It's scary to say so early." He tensed up and his breathing increased, as if he were reliving a painful memory. I asked him if it was something from his past, but he didn't respond for a few minutes. Finally he explained that when he was 18 (he's now 21) there was a girl he cared a lot about and she stopped talking to him when he told her that he loved her. After that and a few other painful experiences he basically avoided girls and stopped trying to meet them. But he added "you're worth it." He told me that he's often worried that he'll screw things up with us and I'll get scared off. I could definitely sense that yesterday. I was starting to notice how hard he tries to please me, and sometimes how nervous he is around me. It was starting to get on my nerves a bit yesterday, but after he explained to me where he was coming from last night it didn't bother me as much. It was weird because at another point later in the night he said "I feel so comfortable around you. I feel like I can trust you completely." Man, I wish I hadn't brought up the love thing. I never would have in a sober state. But I don't think it scared him off. If anything, he seemed a lot closer to me this morning. I think he is in love with me, or at least very infatuated. I can sort of sense it in the way he touches me and the things he says. But still, shouldn't have brought it up this soon. While the freaking out was terrible, in a weird way it brought us closer. I really can't stress how there for me he was. It made me trust him even more. He's just a really good person, I know it. In short, I'm not sure I ever want to smoke again period.
threebyfate Posted December 29, 2009 Posted December 29, 2009 I think someone spiked that joint. That's not a normal reaction to weed, no matter how high the THC content.
Author shadowplay Posted December 29, 2009 Author Posted December 29, 2009 I think someone spiked that joint. That's not a normal reaction to weed, no matter how high the THC content. Possibly, but it was also really, really strong stuff. Just looking at it there were a huge number of crystals.
threebyfate Posted December 29, 2009 Posted December 29, 2009 Possibly, but it was also really, really strong stuff. Just looking at it there were a huge number of crystals.Crystals? Since when does weed have crystals?
Hot Carl Posted December 29, 2009 Posted December 29, 2009 Sounds like long years of experience talking.
laRubiaBonita Posted December 29, 2009 Posted December 29, 2009 I think someone spiked that joint. That's not a normal reaction to weed, no matter how high the THC content. not really an odd reaction.... Crystals? Since when does weed have crystals? it does...... Shadow- i think it is awesome he stayed with you!!! and i bet he does love you as he says... he probably paused in reflection- sometimes love can be there but one will think of it as this emotion they can't quite put there finger on- until asked... and then it becomes clear!
Author shadowplay Posted December 29, 2009 Author Posted December 29, 2009 Crystals? Since when does weed have crystals? I think the technical term is "trichomes" but they're called crystals.
threebyfate Posted December 29, 2009 Posted December 29, 2009 not really an odd reaction....To have no sense or feeling in your limbs? it does...... I think the technical term is "trichomes" but they're called crystals. Ah, just googled it. It's slang. I'm a decade and some, behind, on drug slang. They're not really crystals.
burning 4 revenge Posted December 29, 2009 Posted December 29, 2009 I think someone spiked that joint. That's not a normal reaction to weed, no matter how high the THC content. I agree Ive never heard of anyone getting paranoid after smoking a joint. Normally it just makes you want to drink a lot of ovaltine Im pretty sure your bf suckered you into smoking PCP
Author shadowplay Posted December 29, 2009 Author Posted December 29, 2009 I agree Ive never heard of anyone getting paranoid after smoking a joint. Normally it just makes you want to drink a lot of ovaltine Im pretty sure your bf suckered you into smoking PCP Wasn't a joint. We used a bubbler and I had a ton of hits, because I wasn't feeling anything for about an hour. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks.
thatguy85 Posted December 29, 2009 Posted December 29, 2009 To me it just sounds like years of hurtful experiences with girls made him scared to put himself out there like that again. I think he does love you, but was just scared that if he SAID it, that it would wind up backfiring on him. When he saw that it didn't backfire, it was a HUGE relief for him... which is why he is acting, and will continue to act closer and more affectionate to you. You might think this was a bad experience, but it kind of reminds me of Will Smith in "Hitch". He got drunk from all that Benadryl he was drinking, and started spewing things to Eva Mendes, which brought them closer.
threebyfate Posted December 29, 2009 Posted December 29, 2009 Wasn't a joint. We used a bubbler and I had a ton of hits, because I wasn't feeling anything for about an hour. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks.He's being sarcastic.
Author shadowplay Posted December 29, 2009 Author Posted December 29, 2009 He's being sarcastic. Ha. I can never tell with B4R
threebyfate Posted December 29, 2009 Posted December 29, 2009 Ha. I can never tell with B4RNote the reference to paranoia and ovaltine.
burning 4 revenge Posted December 29, 2009 Posted December 29, 2009 I wouldnt worry about the love thing. Both of you have a big crush at this point so its no big deal. I wouldnt start saying it a lot though or asking him if he loves all the time when you start feeling uneasy
e.clipse Posted December 29, 2009 Posted December 29, 2009 I think someone spiked that joint. That's not a normal reaction to weed, no matter how high the THC content. it can be. shadow, if your reaction to a stronger type of weed made you feel this way, i'd advise you to not try it again. while you're not a habitual smoker, getting such a strong (and negative) reaction is likely indicative that, if you try it again (the same type), you will get the same type of high. while it's normal for people who don't smoke weed often to get a strange type of high when smoking stronger types, your reaction was negative, and i find it likely that you will not "get used to it"; some people just don't react well to it, that's all. that said, if i were you BF, i wouldn't think much about what you said; you were high--and very high, at that. and well, when people get high, they often don't really know WTF they are talking about. but for your safety and mental-wellbeing, i'd advise you to steer away from these types of highs.
Author shadowplay Posted December 30, 2009 Author Posted December 30, 2009 Small update. Last night when we were kissing he suddenly paused and said "I totally....I love you, Shadow." I told him I loved him too. Then he said it again this morning.
Yukikazi Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 Sounds like some good stuff.. And to the person that didn't see the connection between weed and paranoia.. are you serious? Dude for newbies thats one of the primary effects till they get used to it.. that and missing time, munchies, cotton mouth, laughter.. you get the idea..
InspiredbyYou Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 Did you smoke hash? Typical reaction of pot. I wouldn't worry about what you smoked I'd be worried that you smoked so much of it that it didn't agree with you, and on top of it it made you talk. Shouldn't have brought it up, we warned you in your other thread. But now that it's done and out there, don't bring it up again. Be cool, let him come around and talk about it when he feels comfortable otherwise you will create a LOT of pressure for him. At least you know he is well on his way. Leave it at that for heaven's sake and don't get all weirded out around him now. BE COOL woman!
InspiredbyYou Posted December 30, 2009 Posted December 30, 2009 And to the person that didn't see the connection between weed and paranoia.. are you serious? Dude for newbies thats one of the primary effects till they get used to it.. EXACTLY! Edit: just read your update Shadow, AWESOME!
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