kickintheaz Posted December 27, 2009 Posted December 27, 2009 oh look... Christmas is over... hmmm, how did that happen.. and ya know what, I BARELY thought about her... crrrrazy or wha?? Had a lovely 2 days with family and babies talking bout santa... too much food, and then a few pints last night with some neighbours I grew up with.. hadn't seen one of em (yep, a girl) in about 4 years. (about the time I started seeing ex).. well, this girl, lets call her 'hmmmmm' (cos she has me thinking!).. has certainly grown up well, we spent a shedload of time together yesterday, walking the dog and then out last night in pubs/clubs.. never really looked at her in 'that' way before, but am SOO glad I did last night.. and despite her hearing my abridged version of my sorrowful tale, which she was glad I told her aboutm she did confess she was dying to see me this year.... ya know like, 'dying' to see me we share the same values, goals, principals, brought up the same way (4 doors apart) and she is reeeeeaaaaalllllly cute, now that I took my blinkers off... funny how we look at people differently.. obviously now that i back home I thinking bout ex, but not in a 'I GOTTA CALL HER' kinda way..more as a, would life be all that bad if I didn't see her again kinda way?! this NC lark since early xmas eve is pretty cool and I was very proud of me that day, despite her texting that xmas was different etc etc.. I did fail by responding I know, but managed to send a txt saying 'enjoy the weekend and the rest of 2009'... think it ended a few txts later with her saying 'ya know where I am if ya wanna chat'.. CHAT?? are you fking insane? I have spent most of 2009 and the last 3 months 'chatting' bout what I'd like to see in the future and you dismissed those thoughts, ruined me, dropped me into the bottom of a barrel I thought I'd never climb out of and now you are offering your shoulder for me to cry on about YOU???!!... I have enough friends I can talk to thanks.. (since theres about 85000 of us on here!)... SOOOO, where I am going with this.. well, 'hmmmmm' is looking appealing now, not in a 'I want to rebound off every wall with her', but more as 'I can see she is the kinda girl I would like in my life' way... how in the name of all thats mysterious did that happen?? They do say, "it'll happen when ya least expect it"... well, did they rename yesterday as 'when ya least expect it day''??? We're pretty busy in our own lives for the next week, but jan 2nd we're meeting again, to goto the zoo and have lunch... not as a 'date' but as two old friends who are reconnecting... and ya know what, I wish tomorrow was Jan 2nd now... I think I'm more than halfway around that corner I've been hovering at for 2009... isn't this a turn up for the books... 5 more sleeps and '200crap' is over.... ROLL ON 2010 please....
Kantor Posted December 27, 2009 Posted December 27, 2009 Well said, and looks like Santa brought you a present!
madrugada Posted December 28, 2009 Posted December 28, 2009 Sounds like you had a good holiday! Good luck in the new year, we're all rooting for you.
curiousnycgirl Posted December 28, 2009 Posted December 28, 2009 I am so very happy for you! I'm hoping I hit that point soon - really anytime now would be great, because I cannot go an hour without thinking about him.
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