1life8love1trust Posted December 25, 2009 Posted December 25, 2009 Ok so, its Christmas, and well it feels like another regulear day off from work. I have been really just keeping myself busy with work and working out after the break up. Been two months now and well I am a little better. I have been going out to bars and clubs starting to talk to women again, but I still have her in my heart. Well today is Christmas and I am at home with no work and I cant go to the gym cause they are closed. Friends are spending Christmas with family while for me I am going to spend it with mine tonight for dinner. At least I hope so. Anyways, as I was cleaning my place up, I realized that my entire moves feels like someone else is in control. I mean it feels like everything I am doing is not me. Sure I am aware of it thats why I am writing it down here, but it just feels like a dream. I remember how when we were together how I woke up and thank god for her and went to bed thanking god for her. I was fully aware of my actions and my thoughts. But now its different. I dont think I am depressed. I was in the begining, but I have gotten a little better. Its not like I contacted her or anything. Anyone felt this before? Has this anything to do with it at all? Maybe I am getting a late heart attck or something? Knock on wood, just kidding. Yeah so I felt like I had to share that.
McGrupp Posted December 25, 2009 Posted December 25, 2009 i know what your saying. like your doing a lot of stuf thats recomended or different to get yourself offf thinking about her, but doing this stuff and asking yourself "why am i doing this?" and then you realize so you forget about her, but by asking why and doing the thing its just reminding you of her? is that what your saying? for example, afte this happened the recomendation was go to the gym from everyone. i never ever went to the gym. so now, whilst im runnng and dying at the gym, ill be like "why am i here again?"...and then i recall..."oh because of her"
Author 1life8love1trust Posted December 25, 2009 Author Posted December 25, 2009 Something like that, but I know why I am going to the gym. I want to look good for myself. It use to be to get her back, but now I am working on attracting someone new. Still you are right, deep when you think about it its really the hope that she comes back.
Back2dabasics Posted December 26, 2009 Posted December 26, 2009 i understannd you completely. me and my ex broke up 3 months ago because she was playin me all along. first few weeks i felt very depressed. i couldn't believe it. i was completely heartbroken and disappointed. i never thought she would do something like that to me BUT i've learned that you never get to know a person until they do something bad to you. anyway i also decided to hit the gym in order to keep myself distracted. now im going to the gym for ME not her. i feel good when i workout. but you can't really have that "hope" that one day she'll come backto you..you're wasting your time thinking that shes gonna come back to you one day. just keep doing you. if its meant to be then its meant to be. somehow in some way she'll come back. keep yourself busy. keep going out to bars. hook up with other chicks. chill with your friends. hit the gym. do something crazy.
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