bayouboi Posted December 24, 2009 Posted December 24, 2009 It's Christmas Eve and I'm alone this year, but I'm starting to feel okay with that. What's more is she sent me a friend request on facebook (I didn't even know she HAD a facebook lol), and I'll admit I hesitated to accept because of all the horror stories I've read on Loveshack about facebook but I did it anyway. Her relationship status said "It's complicated" which could either mean she's seeing somebody (I wouldn't doubt this because she has an amazing personality and looks to kill) or she doesn't want anyone to bother her like that (she's outgoing and has to deal w/ people at her job so much that she sort of becomes a recluse after work). Anyhow, for now, none of this seemed to bother me. Sure, tiny questions pop around in my mind, but I find myself not mulling over them or entertaining them for more than a few seconds. We were together for a year and it was one of the best years of my life. I ended it because she had started to pull away from the relationship and when I called her out on that, she told me she had lost the spark. Just wanted to share and spill out some of my thoughts. Everyone out there that's lonely is in my thoughts and prayers and I hope everyone has a great holiday.
Author bayouboi Posted December 25, 2009 Author Posted December 25, 2009 One way I'm coping with it being Christmas and being alone is that I'm just sort of pretending it's just another day. Went and rented a bunch of movies from the video store yesterday in anticipation of today and just been watchin' those. Stickin' to doin' routine things. Hope everyone has a tolerable Christmas lol.
moment Posted December 25, 2009 Posted December 25, 2009 Agreed. I have attemped to make this as normal a day as possible. I have had a few moments of weakness and felt myself tearing up..but overall I have stayed strong but I am still waiting for tomorrow to get here so it is no longer Christmas. It is so hard just coming off 2 1/2 months after the break up.
Author bayouboi Posted January 17, 2010 Author Posted January 17, 2010 Ugh, so I decided a couple weeks ago that I had to take her off my FB friend's list because I found myself obsessing over her page. She didn't call or text but sent me another friend request a few days later. I left it up there until either she cancelled it or it autocancelled. Anyhow, she sends me a message on FB basically saying "I guess that says it all", when we haven't really had contact at all. So I reply to tell her that I just couldn't take it because I'm still not over her and found myself obsessing over her page. She apologized but said she felt like our status apart was still for the best and she understood why I defriended her. I mean, I broke up with her because she admitted she lost the spark and I wasn't feeling loved. She wanted to do the "friends" thing but never once initiated contact since the breakup. So why did she act upset about the friend request thing almost as if she was thinking there would be a future reconciliation at some point, but then when I laid out my feelings again, she was quick to reinforce the idea that we shouldn't be together. Is she just jerking me around? Is she just confused? I know you probably don't have the answer, but I just had to vent and hoped for some insight.
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