ThatOneGirl99 Posted December 24, 2009 Posted December 24, 2009 Me and my boyfriend been happily in love for a year until this summer he sat down with me and said that he don't know if we'll make it through uni when he is away..and he is going to a really far uni...he says it would be hard to see me and commit to me as i wont b there with him he says he really loves me but it might be possible that we'll break up ... After that ive started doubting things and wether we should be together soo i would always pick on him for little things and argue with him cus i was so scared to lose him id have doubts and everytime we would have an argument i'd tell him maybe we shouldnt be together or i dont c us working out...but we would stay together then later on we would still argue and he would tell me he's not commited enough for the stress and really wants to concentrate on his studies so he can make it to uni...he said that we should be having fun not arguing over little stupid things ...then we decided to go on a break because i had so so many doubts but this break didnt help as we argued even more then we split up...we go the same college together so it was hard for us to move on everytime id see him in college he would hug me and kiss me and act like we were still together but he didnt want to get back with me cos of college work he wanted to do well....then we occasionally c each other and go cinema and one dayy he told me he really misses me and if there were a chance of us seein each other agen so we did for a bit then i text him saying whats happening with us are we back together or not he said he didnt no what he wanted soo it ended in a big argument again ..and we didnt speak then few days after that i was out with my mates and he were out aswell ..we ended up in the same place...one of the boys was trying it on me and he punched him..he just switched his mates said he still loves you thats why he's done it...when before when we broke up he was saying how after us arguing so much his feelings changed later on that week he text me saying he really wants to be with me so we got back together everything was fine but we didnt tell each other " i love you" cus of the past break up and we was hurt...but then we started arguing agen and recently we split up again ..because of the whole uni thing and we have been so stressed lately we had an arguement n i told him to split up with me ...he couldt later on that day i went to his house to pick up my things and then i said its over then yeah he said please give me few more days so i gave him space...next day he messaged me saying i miss you,i have faith in us ...do you??so i said i do...then few hours later we spoke but he acted really off with me he aksed me if i wanted to go out for a drink and a good chat ...so we did but he was breaking up with me..i was distraught what made him change his mind in a few hours?That night i stayed at his cos i wasnt in the state to go home so i slept in his spare room but he slept in the same bed wiith me calling me baby and cuddling me...we were still split up so i text him saying why u change ur mind n then break up with me then act like u dont wanna let me go he said he said that he was using his head not his heart atm then i said how hurt i was and he said that he was hurt also and he was really sorry that things were like that and he really did wish things were different and that it was just wrong time for us...i love him and so badly want to be with him... He also apologised to me cos when he went to college he set himself a goal of not meeting or getting ith anyone but he said he couldnt help how he felt for me...he also said i was the first girl he ever felt close to since he been with his ex girlfriend of 2 years and that he's been with many other girls but not got with any of them ...he also said that i was literally perfect...does that make special? What do i do know?Shalll i leave him alone?I feel like he wont ever get back with me cus of uni and so much stress cus of me doubting things over uni...when we broke up he said he'll b there for me no matter what and to call him no matter what the problem was or time he ll always be there for me if i need him ...but i said its better if we don;t speak so we can move on ...then next he deleted me of myspace and facebook then ive asked him why he said i dnt want to see your profile especially when other boys chat to youu...i dont understand his behaviour does he love me or not and what do i do...do i leave him alone till he contacts me or just move on??He also said to me in the past that he wished he met me years later when he finished uni and was all settled in...specialy that he told me i was the first girlfriend since his ex gives me this hope that he will miss me and come back someday ...after dating other girls and realise he wants me...so what do i do?
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