dario Posted December 21, 2003 Posted December 21, 2003 I have given her space now. I mean...we've had a few phone calls and drunken sms. she says that she's scared to see me....that she's a coward....that she doesn't want me to ask why she's scared ...what can this mean?
dyermaker Posted December 21, 2003 Posted December 21, 2003 It COULD mean that she just doesn't want to see you anymore, and the only thing she's really scared of is telling you so.
Tony T Posted December 21, 2003 Posted December 21, 2003 It basically means she has no desire to see you. Leave her alone and move on!
moimeme Posted December 22, 2003 Posted December 22, 2003 It could also mean she thinks she's on the verge of falling for you and she's afraid to take that plunge. Too bad people don't just say what they mean, thereby saving us the labour of attempting to read their minds.
Author dario Posted December 22, 2003 Author Posted December 22, 2003 What I am discovering is that there are no guidelines/rules to matters of the heart.
moimeme Posted December 22, 2003 Posted December 22, 2003 Nope. As with everything else involving humans, it's a crapshoot.
Author dario Posted December 22, 2003 Author Posted December 22, 2003 Let me speak honestly...my past is dark. I have done some not so likeable things. Now I consider myself a decent person...a person capable of love. When I met this woman, I was coming out of hell. I wasn't exactly the devil...but it makes me shudder at some of the things I've done - to people, to anyone. Now I've found beauty. And there's no way in the world I'm going to lose her. That might sound stupid...but, hey...I'm out of the warzone in my life and now I've found this.
Author dario Posted December 22, 2003 Author Posted December 22, 2003 moimeme, you know what you're talking about. In this world of worlds I guess I've seen the light. I'm afraid to tell her this. But, hey, life is a gamble. I know that. I know that well. This is totally different to anything I know. I've banished all help in the past...I've lived badly...I am so damn strong now that my passion is unlimited. It's hard to explain. I have been given another chance at life...this might sound melodramatic....as you don't know me. But it's all I can say. God help me.
dyermaker Posted December 22, 2003 Posted December 22, 2003 You sound poetic, not melodramatic. Good luck though, I hope you get what you're after.
moimeme Posted December 22, 2003 Posted December 22, 2003 I'm afraid to tell her this. If it's true, you should. You do take a huge risk by being honest; the risk is that the person you're being honest with won't appreciate the honesty or perhaps won't be up for hearing the message. Nonetheless, there are points in your life when the only worthwhile thing to do is to step out of your fear and take the risk. At the very least, it will save you a lifetime of "what if's"
Author dario Posted December 22, 2003 Author Posted December 22, 2003 She saved my life, moimeme. She really did. And all it took was a photograph of her. One simple thing. That's heavy, I admit. But it happened...just recently.
moimeme Posted December 22, 2003 Posted December 22, 2003 Miracles happen in the oddest of ways sometimes.
Author dario Posted December 22, 2003 Author Posted December 22, 2003 I guess they do. They really do. I'm in a bit of euphoria now...being alive. And all I want to do is squeeze her, y'know? Sort of zap her with the charge she has given me.
Author dario Posted December 22, 2003 Author Posted December 22, 2003 And the only thing I can do at the moment is send her an email...as I don't want to bother her. So I just said, You are a gem, XXXX. You are a gem. How she interpretes that I don't know...I must live.
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