teanoranges Posted December 23, 2009 Posted December 23, 2009 How could I be so stupid not to see this coming? 2.5 years of on/off. Do you think when we were 'off' he was thinking about me? no, his chump self was out flirting with girls, had his arm around them, sitting close to them, who knows what else. He says he's just close to people and that they're nothing, just friends. HELLO!! I consider myself a strong woman, but jeez was I dumb! He knew how to talk, that was all. He knew how to turn around a situation to make it look fine. We spent 6 months fine, but as soon as I moved to a location closer to him when I could see him more often, bam he's distant again. How do you love someone and not yearn to be near them and show them affection? He used me plain and simple. and I'm the one sitting here thinking about who I thought he was, but apparently isn't. Now, I just want to yell at him and freak out on him, but it wouldn't matter. he has no conscious. grrr... thank goodness for NC.. 41 days and still going. can't wait until its in the far far past. I guess this is life's way of making sure it happens, since it gave me so many chances to walk away and I never did.
GrayClouds Posted December 23, 2009 Posted December 23, 2009 How could I be so stupid not to see this coming? 2.5 years of on/off. Do you think when we were 'off' he was thinking about me? no, his chump self was out flirting with girls, had his arm around them, sitting close to them, who knows what else. He says he's just close to people and that they're nothing, just friends. HELLO!! I consider myself a strong woman, but jeez was I dumb! He knew how to talk, that was all. He knew how to turn around a situation to make it look fine. We spent 6 months fine, but as soon as I moved to a location closer to him when I could see him more often, bam he's distant again. How do you love someone and not yearn to be near them and show them affection? He used me plain and simple. and I'm the one sitting here thinking about who I thought he was, but apparently isn't. Now, I just want to yell at him and freak out on him, but it wouldn't matter. he has no conscious. grrr... thank goodness for NC.. 41 days and still going. can't wait until its in the far far past. I guess this is life's way of making sure it happens, since it gave me so many chances to walk away and I never did. Righteous anger is a good thing, What I see those words is a woman who has a sense of her own value. Congratulations this is where your better life begins, .
nobmagnet Posted December 23, 2009 Posted December 23, 2009 vent away my love He sounds a sh*t. hey babe........you dodged a bullet. anger isnt bad but if you turn it 180 and invest that energy into yourself, well just imagine the results! new frock, new hair, almost probably the divorce diet ( how many pounds you lost??) get your new self out and about and shine!!!! You dont need to replace him just have some well deserved fun xxxxxxxx hugs
Author teanoranges Posted December 23, 2009 Author Posted December 23, 2009 yes, he is a sh*t. He's way too into himself and very critical of everyone else. sorry, I'm about to trash talk him and I hate doing that, but anonymously is better than to everyone who knows him, right? I would feel bad and instead of consoling me, he'd tell me I was overdramatic... this made me stop going to him with any issue I had. he'd change plans on me for other people because.. well i guess in his words 'I always neglect the people I love most,I don't mean to, I guess I just feel like you can handle yourself (while I take care of others?)' He's a liar and full of himself.. Why does it matter if he misses me? (cause that's what I'd love) haha, done with that rant. thanks GC and nob I guess since he really wasn't there, I made up something I wanted and let him 'use' me. I have been doing real good. I'm a very "bouncy" laughy person to those that know me, I just have to get it out here I guess... funny, I do have new hair and lost a little weight (but am really comfortable with myself) I'm definitely not looking for anyone new, but taking advantage of checking out people with my eyes, haha.
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