1life8love1trust Posted December 20, 2009 Posted December 20, 2009 So as I posted up before, she left our 3 year relationship for a new guy. Its only been a little over 2 months, but it feels like its been a little longer. Funny thing is when I started the NC, which was a several days of acting desperate and needy, and I made contact after a month, she tells me she is in a new relationship already. WTF Anyways I have read all the materials I can and rereading it over and over again and it says be ok with the facts. As a matter of fact be her friend. Have her not think of you as needing her. I want her but I don't need her. The problem with that is the last time I talk to her was late November early December. With that conversation she told me that she was in a new relationship and I told her I was happy for her and I wished her the best. I told her that there was no hard feelings and that it would be a waste to throw away our friendship after being together for three years. She says she agrees, but I have not heard from her at all. Its her Birthday today, that is probably why I am stuck thinking about her. I new that the new guy is probably with her, her friends and family. Just a very new feeling for me. Not only did I lose her, but everything about her. Her family, her friends, just weird. I am told this is better, that way I have little things that I will be more reminded of her. Well I am not going to contact her and greet her a Happy Birthday, I wont greet her a merry Christmas and a Happy New year as well. Its not that I dont want her to be happy on those days but....not to be selfish but what about me? What about us? Am I happy for Christmas? Am I going to enjoy New Years? Breaking up before the Holidays, the best time of the year to drive someone crazy. Well I am not going to call or do anything to contact her, so I will greet her here, maybe the Universe will unfold and this will reach her. "Happy 24th Birthday My Love Jossa!" 12-20-2009
HLP234 Posted December 20, 2009 Posted December 20, 2009 If you are continuing NC then I would just say stick with it. If she really cared she knows how to get to you. I know, the holidays will not be happy ones for me either. She left me all alone when I had figured wow maybe this year will be awesome I'll get to spend xmas and new years with her..but nope she's spending time with her "best friend" instead. Just continue to heal, its easier said than done..I'm having a tough time dealing with it too..mostly because we are on a "break" and its not definitive to me that we are over completely because she never ever mentioned that..but oh well I'll assume it is.
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