EmptyPromises Posted December 18, 2009 Posted December 18, 2009 its pathetic. ive been seeing this guy for almost 2 years. yea there have been good times, fun times. but for the most part, its an abusive controlling, stressful rellationship that is really starting to take its toll on me. most of you probably know my story. we have both been physically abusive with eachother on a few occasions. he talks down to me alot and its making me very depressed. im sitting here in my bed with the most anxiety ive ever felt. im so deperessed. in the past few months we broke up a few times. during one of those times he got a girl pregnant. killed me and us. i forgave him and things were really gooing good. and now theyre just bad again. i feel like he cant commit to me and hides me. were seniors in college. people keep writing on this gossip website that hes cheating on me. he cant take single off his facebook page and its really making me worry and be suspicios. i know i deserve better. i want it to be him who i wind up with, i keep thinking hes goign to change, but hes not going to is he? really its gotten to the point where im sick of feeling so ****ty and just want him to dissappear from my life. do i wait and see what happens? see if he comes around in the next few days if i ignore him? or do i just let it go once and for all? and if that , how the heck do i do that? im a weak person. i know i am. i need strength to start to respect myself and walk away if thats the case. please help me. advice, opionions anyone.
Pentel Posted December 18, 2009 Posted December 18, 2009 i know how you feel, you do deserve better, you want to be with him, but really you do deserve better, it hurts like hell, believe me, im going tru it right now, it hurts like ****in hell, but you gotta do it, for yourself,
GrayClouds Posted December 18, 2009 Posted December 18, 2009 its pathetic. ive been seeing this guy for almost 2 years. yea there have been good times, fun times. but for the most part, its an abusive controlling, stressful rellationship that is really starting to take its toll on me. most of you probably know my story. we have both been physically abusive with eachother on a few occasions. he talks down to me alot and its making me very depressed. im sitting here in my bed with the most anxiety ive ever felt. im so deperessed. in the past few months we broke up a few times. during one of those times he got a girl pregnant. killed me and us. i forgave him and things were really gooing good. and now they're just bad again. i feel like he cant commit to me and hides me. were seniors in college. people keep writing on this gossip website that hes cheating on me. he cant take single off his facebook page and its really making me worry and be suspicios. i know i deserve better. i want it to be him who i wind up with, i keep thinking hes goign to change, but hes not going to is he? really its gotten to the point where im sick of feeling so ****ty and just want him to dissappear from my life. do i wait and see what happens? see if he comes around in the next few days if i ignore him? or do i just let it go once and for all? and if that , how the heck do i do that? im a weak person. i know i am. i need strength to start to respect myself and walk away if thats the case. please help me. advice, opionions anyone. Read the following and stick to it. It will not make it easy but much less painful: The No Contact Guide
Author EmptyPromises Posted December 18, 2009 Author Posted December 18, 2009 thanks guys, ive tried so many times to leave him for good but it never works! i love him to death, but hes not treating me how i want. whenever i do no contact it drives him crazy and usually after a few weeks he changes his ways and is beggging me back, making me feel SO special and is extra sweet and i feel like he l earns his lesson, but after a few weeks hes back to being an ass. ive blocked his number several times, only to unblock it after a few days and make myself look stupid. also facebook blocking the same way. i would LOVE to just be his friend and for us to be okay with that. but i know its not going to work when im still in love with him. were going away for break tomorrow, were love half hour from eachother. so maybe thatll help. does anyone suggest just stop talking to him right this second and start no contact?
GrayClouds Posted December 18, 2009 Posted December 18, 2009 (edited) does anyone suggest just stop talking to him right this second and start no contact? Ding Ding Ding yes you got it. and block everything and when you are tempted to contact go for a run, post on LS, call a friend, cry to the family, beat up your pillow until your so tired of laughing so hard at your craziness you have to stop. Remember when you think he is making you feel sweet and special, in reality your just being gullible and easy. Stop playing this game, it is not romantic it is disrespectful to yourself. Here is some more reading So you want a second chance? Edited December 18, 2009 by GrayClouds
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