kickintheaz Posted December 18, 2009 Posted December 18, 2009 so I just went back and re read all my LS posts from my 'dark days'.. Holy Mother of someone important but wasn't I the little doormat with "Welcome to Doormat Warehouse" written all over me.. I reeeeeeeeaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyy need to start realising some things about me and how I was treated... no 1: You are NOT a doormat..... no 2: that girl in the barbers actually WAS chatting you up today... so like, you mean I'm not on a dessert island with only one girl who doesn't wanna be with me??? hmmmm.. interesting... no 3: See no 1 and 2 mini rant over.. thanks..
deux ex machina Posted December 18, 2009 Posted December 18, 2009 so I just went back and re read all my LS posts from my 'dark days'.. Holy Mother of someone important but wasn't I the little doormat with "Welcome to Doormat Warehouse" written all over me.. I reeeeeeeeaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyy need to start realising some things about me and how I was treated... no 1: You are NOT a doormat..... no 2: that girl in the barbers actually WAS chatting you up today... so like, you mean I'm not on a dessert island with only one girl who doesn't wanna be with me??? hmmmm.. interesting... no 3: See no 1 and 2 mini rant over.. thanks.. Sounds like your perspective on a lot of things is widening. This is very, very good.
Author kickintheaz Posted December 18, 2009 Author Posted December 18, 2009 Sounds like your perspective on a lot of things is widening. This is very, very good. it wavers Deux, I was in hog heaven yesterday, organised loads for the xmas period (the first in 9 years I've not had a g/f) and was great, then txt ex today.. not great.. I think my head is finally getting in on the act and is sick of being left out of every decision I make cos it knows the heart just wants its own way, which its not gonna let it get this time... baby steps..
nobmagnet Posted December 18, 2009 Posted December 18, 2009 baby steps indeed but each one is moving forward! chuffed...................undersatement. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
GrayClouds Posted December 18, 2009 Posted December 18, 2009 no 4. as you perfect # 3 just think the quality of women how will go for you!
Author kickintheaz Posted December 18, 2009 Author Posted December 18, 2009 thanks nobmagnet... no 4. as you perfect # 3 just think the quality of women how will go for you! Just reading that and giving it a wee tiny little thought has brought a smile to my face, thank you GrayClouds.... and made me add the next few to the list: no. 5: I know what I want in life now.... I don't know many of my single male friends of similar age who could say that! no. 6: I know the depth of feeling I can have for someone.... never knew that about me before! no 7: Since I have recently been at absolute rock bottom emotionally, there really IS only way... up! no 8: If at first you don't succeed.. NO CONTACT... no 9 : I now have 100% more time on my hands, that I had given over to dealing with her in recent times.. I can use that wisely for me now. no 10: Without the ex coming into and leaving my life I wouldn't have this list of realisations. no 11: If I was still with her, I wouldn't have this list of realisations.
GrayClouds Posted December 18, 2009 Posted December 18, 2009 thanks nobmagnet... Just reading that and giving it a wee tiny little thought has brought a smile to my face, thank you GrayClouds.... and made me add the next few to the list: no. 5: I know what I want in life now.... I don't know many of my single male friends of similar age who could say that! no. 6: I know the depth of feeling I can have for someone.... never knew that about me before! no 7: Since I have recently been at absolute rock bottom emotionally, there really IS only way... up! no 8: If at first you don't succeed.. NO CONTACT... no 9 : I now have 100% more time on my hands, that I had given over to dealing with her in recent times.. I can use that wisely for me now. no 10: Without the ex coming into and leaving my life I wouldn't have this list of realisations. no 11: If I was still with her, I wouldn't have this list of realisations. As my old toothless grandma would say " A bad break-up gives you growing pains, kickintheaz I can see your growing a lot. Now go brush your teeth you do not want to end up like me"
Author kickintheaz Posted December 18, 2009 Author Posted December 18, 2009 As my old toothless grandma would say " A bad break-up gives you growing pains, kickintheaz I can see your growing a lot. .. Cheers a lot!... its sore alright, but I is a learning! Now go brush your teeth you do not want to end up like me" you mean.. end up having 10 of the last 12 posts every time I come on here!!... :laugh:
GrayClouds Posted December 18, 2009 Posted December 18, 2009 you mean.. end up having 10 of the last 12 posts every time I come on here!!... :laugh: Good, what can I say... it's a slow day at the morgue... but the busy season is just about to start... holiday travel and all.
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