What's going to happen next?

[ConfusedGirl9]

I broke NC about a week after my ex broke up with me.

 

I couldn't help it, it hurt not to hear from him. It's difficult to go from seeing each other almost every day and hearing from each other every day to... nothing. Not really even getting an update on how the other is doing from mutual friends.

 

I just asked him how he was doing. He replied back immediately, and said he was good, and said that he was actually going to call me earlier but got a call from a (guy) friend about making plans. He then asked what I was up to later. I waited awhile to respond (so I seemed a bit busy) and told him I was going to go out with a friend to a party, and he began asking about the party's whereabouts and whatnot. We chatted for a little bit, and finally I invited him to come out.

 

He joined us at the party and we had a great time. The next day, I told him I needed to talk to him. We sat at my house and talked. I told him that I still had feelings for him and still cared about him. To my surprise, he admitted the same thing. He also said it's really hard to see me with other people (other guys were flirting with me at the party). We hugged for a long time and cuddled for a little bit.

 

After that, I had a bad dream about him getting another girlfriend, so I called him over to my house again for another talk. He agreed to come out. We talked some more and figured out that we weren't sure what to do now. We were both confused. We still have feelings. He wasn't seeing anyone else, this is what he assured me of. He asked me what I wanted him to do, and I told him I didn't know because I wasn't sure what to do. We both admitted we missed everything we had. We cuddled again before agreeing we were going to call it a night... and agreed to still talk and hang out, and see how things played out. We agreed we weren't gonna try to figure it all out just this second.

 

The next day, I didn't hear from him. I broke down and texted him late in the night to ask what he was up to. After all, we were still gonna talk and hang out... it was harmless, right? I didn't hear anything, so I figured he was sleeping. I waited another day and a half, still NC. Then I finally called him and asked if he wanted to hang out the next day. He said sure, and that he'd call me later that night to discuss plans. I didn't hear anything from him later in the night, so I texted him later to ask how his night was going. He and I talked for a bit. Then I finally asked him what he had planned for the next day. He told me work and then hanging out with a guy friend he hadn't seen in a long time. I was fine with that... he hadn't seen his friend in a long time, and they barely get to make time to hang out. I was just hurt that I was pretty sure he wasn't gonna tell me that he had to cancel our plans, that I was going to have to find out on my own.

 

I'm re-establishing NC. I just want to know what's going to happen next... I just want to know if there's still a chance we'll figure things out... if any of this sounds promising?

[ConfusedGirl9]

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