Aliex121 Posted December 15, 2009 Posted December 15, 2009 Hey people, im new to this and just wanted to express some of my feelings towards a break up which ive felt awfully hard to deal with. Ill start from the beginningXD i was 15 years of age, met this girl who i got chatting to etc, one thing lead to another and we met up, i really enjoyed being around her she was great person, and seriously hot so i asked her if she would go out with me, she said yes....omg i was so happy, over the moon, life couldnt get any better! things went great for the next 6 weeks, and i loved this girl to pieces! then my downfall came, it proberly partly my fault as i always acted like i wanted to impress her, be different from everybody else, be a bit of a wannabe ladies man... so after a while she said the usual "I need some space" " i wana be on my own for abit" stuff like that, obv i didnt take it that well, but i was sort of alright, thinking that surely she would get back with me some time soon, but no she didnt... i always checked out her myspace pages, pretty much stalking her, cos i wanted to kno what she was doing and what not... cut a longer story short, as the gap between our breakup increased my feelings became stronger for her, and as time progressed i felt worse and worse.... its now around 2 years to the day she split up with me, and now im 17 still young...i always have the odd day ide think about her, think about what could have been, and get really depressed about it, knowing that i dont have the balls to talk to her, but she did some bad stuff to me aswel after the breakup, so i cant contact her and tell her how i feel after all this time but yea back to the story^^ the other night i dreamt about her, i woke up and felt awfull, i needed her so much i wanted to be with her, share my life with hers, but i knew it couldnt happen, so all of today ive just been thinking about her, and feeling so angry that i was "an idiot" but i was very young and didnt know how to "handle" a girlfriend, if i could turn back time ide make amends, but alas i cannot... thats the story, basically i need help cos i cant keep going on like this, she was my first girlfriend, and really the only one i have had.....when ever i think of her i fill up with anger and take it out on other people, and i cant continue like this, so any help would be so so appreciated, thanks guys! Rant over:P
wonderinwhatsup Posted December 15, 2009 Posted December 15, 2009 Hey buddy, you're in pretty much the exact same boat as me except our breakup happened when she went to college (same school as me). We've been broken up for a little more than 2 years, except for me during that whole time she kept in contact and chatted about random stuff sometimes about our relationship even when she had another boyfriend. She cut contact with me just before they broke up (about 2 weeks ago). I know exactly what you're saying about the dreaming, because that happened to me just the other night. I don't know why we have trouble getting over our exes. Hooking up with other girls is fun, but it really isn't the same. It's hard man but we just gotta stick with the idea that everything happens for a reason and that breaking up with our girls is only paving the way for better things down the road... I was thinking of maybe texting her Merry Christmas ( we promised we'd always do that) but now I don't even know if that's a good idea. Best thing I can suggest for you is to try and find someone else. That's the only thing that's gonna make this pain go away I feel.
Author Aliex121 Posted December 15, 2009 Author Posted December 15, 2009 its reasuring hearing other people feeling the same way i do, not a nice feeling tho:( thanks for ur message it really has helped the way i look at it now:) ill try and find another girl, but i just feel guilty, but whats not meant to be-just aint meant to be:( thanks again for ur reply, and good luck in ur decision to text ur ex over xmas
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