Me and my ex

[patriots12]

So me and my ex dated for a year. We were madly in love with eachother, everything was perfect, I knew she was the girl that I wanted to marry, and she wanted to marry me too. She did everything for me, she was a great girl. I don't think I could find anyone like her, she was beautiful, inside and out, I didn't deserve her. I went to college, she's still in high school. Right when i went to college I started making friends with a lot of single guys, I didn't really talk much to my girlfriend, everyone was telling me to break up with her because I'm in college now and I need to live life. So I broke it off with her, she was so heart broken, and I knew she was too, I knew I was being a ****, and I knew she didn't deserve what i was doing, so I told her to move on, I didn't want to lead her on because I care so much for her, so I told her we shouldn't talk anymore because she was a mess. She kept wanting to come up to college so we could have sex but I just felt so bad that I couldn't do that to her. So we started not speaking to eachother, she didn't go to school for 2 weeks i guess, she was crying up in her room the whole time, then she started talking to one of my friends who she had a "thing" with before me and her dated and I didn't even know about it, but she chose me over him i guess... now after all this, and us breaking up, a month later, I come begging back telling her I'm sorry, I give her so many flowers, I do everything I can to show her that I made a huge mistake, and that she's the only one that I want to be with.. In the mean time, this guy is writing her love poems, treating her like a queen, making me look like a ****, so she tells me that she's picking him over me, and I couldn't believe that because me and her are so in love, so I kept talking to her, pushing her away more and more, i kept apologizing, and i didn't realize that i was just making things worse.. now i feel like she doesn't want to be with me at all, but she still texts me every now and then just to say little things like merry christmas, happy birthday etc.. She's already saying she loves this guy though, and I just can't believe it, WHAT DO I DO?