4givrnt4gtr Posted December 8, 2009 Posted December 8, 2009 (edited) I miss him like crazy Sometimes i think im over it, that im moving on with my life...and then something happens and i just go back to missing him. But its different now...before it was more like...painful, like full of anguish and horrible. Now, i guess i accepted the fact that I will never be with him again. But at the same time I know that he is/was a lot of what I want in a man. Im spending a lot of time with this guy that likes me, and the more i talk to him the more i miss my ex. This new guy is much like, well pretty much every other guy ive met. Before meeting my ex, i would have been ok with him, but now, it just makes me wish my ex hadnt left, because I dont know how Im going to find what I found in him. Its very depressing. Its not just this guy...I just havent seen the qualities he had in any other guys, I actually wasnt expecting to find them in my ex but I did...and now Im spoiled.. This coming friday would have been our anniversary...... Im going to go visit my family to get my mind off of it.... But god how i miss him Edited December 8, 2009 by 4givrnt4gtr
Oxo Posted December 8, 2009 Posted December 8, 2009 It'll get easier. That's what people tell me and I wish I had more of a guarantee to make it better for you xx
Torn_apart Posted December 8, 2009 Posted December 8, 2009 It does get better. You missed this one so that you can find the right one. When that special person comes, you'll be wondering why you were ever so miserable. For now, focus on yourself instead of him. I just found out a friend's mother had to be hospitalized and she was crying on the phone. Made me realized how insignificant my problems were.
USMCHokie Posted December 8, 2009 Posted December 8, 2009 I miss him like crazy Sometimes i think im over it, that im moving on with my life...and then something happens and i just go back to missing him. But its different now...before it was more like...painful, like full of anguish and horrible. Now, i guess i accepted the fact that I will never be with him again. But at the same time I know that he is/was a lot of what I want in a man. But god how i miss him Him = her, and you've got exactly how I've been feeling ever since the breakup...I accept that it's over, but each day that passes, I realize that she embodied exactly what I wanted in a life partner...I know that she doesn't want to be a part of my life ever again, but it gives me a guide as to who I really want to spend the rest of my life with...if that new person comes along, great...but if not, I'm ok knowing that I at least got a taste of happiness...however fleeting that moment...
Author 4givrnt4gtr Posted December 9, 2009 Author Posted December 9, 2009 I know that she doesn't want to be a part of my life ever again, but it gives me a guide as to who I really want to spend the rest of my life with...if that new person comes along, great...but if not, I'm ok knowing that I at least got a taste of happiness...however fleeting that moment... Doesnt that kill you though? especially when you're with other girls? I mean I havent dated anyone, Im just hanging out with friends and stuff, but even then, it kills me every time i say something and people just look at the with blank looks. Or when, like that guy that is hell bent on making me think we would be good together starts talking it just makes me run and hide because he is so much like everyone else ive met and yet so far from what my ex was......I just hate knowing that I had what i wanted for so long but for some reason I was the only one who felt that way. It just seems so weird to me, especially because I cant understand how we could have had such a great times together and he not felt at least somewhat close to what I felt....maybe he is just a great actor... I dont know..its just depressing...but i guess life goes on. I swear since August Ive been put through the ringer, dealing with trying out long distance relationship, then losing him for good, starting doing therapy to a very disable population (on the same week we broke up no less) full school load, work, and doctoral applications on top of finding out one of my best friends has had feelings for me for years in the worst way possible and try to not lose the friendship anyway...Im exhausted in every way imaginable.
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