Where did this come from?

[BW007]

The last couple of days, everything has sort of coughed back up on me. Seriously, I have been doing better, feeling stronger. But the last few days BLAMMO! I mean, what the heck? It has been over and no contact since April. Why the sudden surge of emotion? I don't get it. Nothing has changed. You could chalk it up to the holidays or loneliness I guess, but this hit deep all of the sudden. I am sick of this.

[j_cali_man]

BW,

 

I am up super late typing on this site because I have been sleeping so poorly lately that I dread going to bed and tossing and turning. I am 6 weeks in and it's rough. Thought I was getting a handle somewhat and then lost it upon seeing her car atthe new BF's place. Bad idea on my part and I thought it would help me...hurt me 10X more instead. I think (from reading so many other posts) that the rough days will still come but much less often with time and you will tend to bounce back faster.

 

I have chose to devote myself 200% into friends, family, and getting my new business off of the ground. Even if I am sobbing while working.

 

J

[twinklecat]

j_cali_man, I'm 6 weeks in too and it really is a rough ride. Some days I'm really good, realise he wasn't good for me and excited for the future, then days like today I just feel so low I have done stuff to hurt myself thinking it would make me feel better (ie finding some items of his clothing on her bedroom floor) and it just all comes flooding back. I feel like such a **** person, gave up so much for him and this is what happens.

I know it will get alot better, just wish that time was here!

[BW007]

Bingo! Car at the new BF's house. my ex moved from ten miles away to two blocks away with her new BF and I see the car everyday. But this is not recent. I wish she would move to Somalia or something.

This really is messing with me how much she is back in my mind.

6 weeks is so recent. ugh. Kick ass on your business and get really successful and happy. Best revenge ever.