Music. Does it hurt too much?

[madrugada]

I was just going through my music collection, looking at all the great CDs I can't listen to anymore because my ex and I shared a love of the same kind of music. All the music that was once mine became ours, and it all brings back so many memories that sometimes I can't handle it.

 

There are some artists, though, that remained mine. But so many, in fact most, songs are about heartbreak, and I've been trying so hard to get away from that feeling.

 

Anyway here's a song by Tom Waits that's been rolling through my head relentlessly. It's not so much a song as it is a spoken word thing, with a jazz combo in the background.

 

I still don't know if it hurts or helps, but sometimes it feels good to be low.

 

Emotional Weather Report

 

Late night and early morning low clouds

with a chance of fog

chance of showers into the afternoon

with variable high cloudiness

and gusty winds, gusty winds

at times around the corner of Sunset and Alvarado

things are tough all over

when the thunderstorms start increasing

over the southeast and south central

portions of my apartment

I get upset

and a line of thunderstorms was developing

in the early morning

ahead of a slow moving cold front

with tornado watches issued

shortly before noon Sunday

for the areas including the western region

of my mental health

and the northern portion of my ability

to deal rationally with my

disconcerted precarious emotional situation

it's cold out there

flash flood watches covered the southern portion

of my disposition

there was no severe weather

well into the afternoon

except for a lone gust of wind

in the bedroom

a high pressure zone covering

the eastern portion of a small suburban community

with a 103 millibar high pressure zone and a weak pressure ridge

extending from my eyes down to my cheeks

'cause since you left me baby

and put the vice grips on my mental health

well the extended outlook for an indefinite period of time

until you come back to me baby

is high tonight, low tomorrow

and precipitation is expected

[USMCHokie]

for me, it both helps and hurts...i've listened to both the heartbreak songs and the angry breakup songs...at this point, i'm numb to their effect and just like listening to them...do they remind me of her? yes...very much...but it doesn't hurt as much anymore...

[XKatieX]

Mostly just the ones that had meaning for our relationship hurt, and those are the ones I've been avoiding.

[soheartbroken]

Hurts too much. Haven't chosen to listen to music in almost 5 months (I have to hear it at work etc. though).

 

I think this will change soon. Gotta face my fear.

 

Music is so cathartic I'm just afraid of how it will make me feel...

[Kaya]

The only music I've been able to listen to is music without words, just calm relaxing instrumental stuff.. I find that it's comforting and has nothing that reminds me of the breakup. I avoid the radio like the plague.

[HeavenOrHell]

I haven't listened to much since he left, there is one song which I cant imagine ever listening to again as it is just too personal to us, I can't go near it.

I want to start listening to music again though.

[ann09]

its amazing the effect music has on our souls. i am this way too. i can be in a store, hear any song and just lose it right there.

[GrayClouds]

 

Emotional Weather Report

 

Late night and early morning low clouds

with a chance of fog

chance of showers into the afternoon

with variable high cloudiness

and gusty winds, gusty winds...

 

That should be the them song to my screen name!!!!!!!!!!!

[soheartbroken]

The only music I've been able to listen to is music without words, just calm relaxing instrumental stuff.. I find that it's comforting and has nothing that reminds me of the breakup. I avoid the radio like the plague.

 

Ha! And I thought I was the only one!

[Tsokoholic]

I feel the same way. I can't listen to music without remembering my ex. I have so many favorite songs that I can't listen to now because it brings me back to the feeling of loss and hurt.