DenverBachelor Posted December 1, 2009 Posted December 1, 2009 First of all, I'd like to thank all the beautiful people here who had a lot of insight into my issues (and those of others). Especially those who had moved on but stuck around to help the newbies. So, welcome to my longest and last post. This is going to be a long one and I doubt anyone will read the entire thing. It's alright -- I'm leaving this stone on the path as a reminder for those who do choose to read it and for myself. Tonight, I texted my ex back and forth. My last text was concerning how our dog was doing. She didn't respond with a text, but with a long e-mail. Long story short, she works a lot and choose to give our dog to her parents. I respect and support her decision, but it is the final nail in the coffin towards my hopes of the past having some chance of echoing into the future. You see, we lived together for a year and we got our puppy six months into our time living together. In my mind, we were a family. She would be my wife, the puppy was like my little kid -- it brought me happiness and a big smile to my face. Now, we are all in different places. It's like two asteroids smashing into each other with the fragments going in all directions. We'd love to put the pieces together but it's too fragmented and destroyed. My future wife is with someone new and our dog is with her parents. We once all lived together and now we ALL live apart. Ironically, just the thought of her and our puppy still being together gave me some happiness in the back of my mind. I decided to say **** NC and **** LC (It doesn't matter if I get banned at this point since this is my last post). I sent her two e-mails back -- one in reply to her's about our dog and one that I had written long ago to help myself heal. I my mind, reconciliation is a non-issue so I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Sometimes in life you have to follow your heart. Your heart is the best author of who you are -- no self help book or other people's advice will ever know your situation better than your heart. So **** NC and LC, I sent the e-mail to her because I wanted to bury the past and get it out of my system completely. Tonight I felt like I had been assaulted by three ninjas and beaten to an inch of my life and then, after getting some medicine, I felt I had been beaten to a micrometer. My emotions and soul have been racked over the coals. I went all out and I got the biggest solid punch since the breakup -- but ironically, for the first time SINCE the breakup, I feel whole again. It's amazing how a thorough ass kicking can bring relief after the fact. Good luck to everyone and follow your heart. I feel at peace for the first time since following mine.
TheLoneSock Posted December 1, 2009 Posted December 1, 2009 First of all, I'd like to thank all the beautiful people here who had a lot of insight into my issues (and those of others). Especially those who had moved on but stuck around to help the newbies. So, welcome to my longest and last post. This is going to be a long one and I doubt anyone will read the entire thing. It's alright -- I'm leaving this stone on the path as a reminder for those who do choose to read it and for myself. Tonight, I texted my ex back and forth. My last text was concerning how our dog was doing. She didn't respond with a text, but with a long e-mail. Long story short, she works a lot and choose to give our dog to her parents. I respect and support her decision, but it is the final nail in the coffin towards my hopes of the past having some chance of echoing into the future. You see, we lived together for a year and we got our puppy six months into our time living together. In my mind, we were a family. She would be my wife, the puppy was like my little kid -- it brought me happiness and a big smile to my face. Now, we are all in different places. It's like two asteroids smashing into each other with the fragments going in all directions. We'd love to put the pieces together but it's too fragmented and destroyed. My future wife is with someone new and our dog is with her parents. We once all lived together and now we ALL live apart. Ironically, just the thought of her and our puppy still being together gave me some happiness in the back of my mind. I decided to say **** NC and **** LC (It doesn't matter if I get banned at this point since this is my last post). I sent her two e-mails back -- one in reply to her's about our dog and one that I had written long ago to help myself heal. I my mind, reconciliation is a non-issue so I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Sometimes in life you have to follow your heart. Your heart is the best author of who you are -- no self help book or other people's advice will ever know your situation better than your heart. So **** NC and LC, I sent the e-mail to her because I wanted to bury the past and get it out of my system completely. Tonight I felt like I had been assaulted by three ninjas and beaten to an inch of my life and then, after getting some medicine, I felt I had been beaten to a micrometer. My emotions and soul have been racked over the coals. I went all out and I got the biggest solid punch since the breakup -- but ironically, for the first time SINCE the breakup, I feel whole again. It's amazing how a thorough ass kicking can bring relief after the fact. Good luck to everyone and follow your heart. I feel at peace for the first time since following mine. Don't be so quick to bounce out of here. You still have a lot of healing to do. A doctor wouldn't let you leave the hospital before you've recovered, would they? Lol. Anyway, don't feel ashamed if you make more posts, no one will think less of you.
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