adamt Posted November 28, 2009 Posted November 28, 2009 (edited) what are people going to do to get themselves through xmas to take their mind off things? I am not looking forward to the festive holidays. I can feel it building up in me. I am starting to think about the ex more and more as xmas gets closer. I've been split up 6 months(3 year relationship) and just kept myself busy, got in shape,a few trips overseas, not taken much time off work as i dont want to sit about and think things. I've been doing ok and been out on a few dates. but this week i've started to think about the ex more. I just cant seem to stop myself thinking about this time last year, spending xmas eve and xmas morning together. and the same at new year. going shopping looking for ideas for presents. I'm going to be off work for 10 days and i just dont know how i will fill my time. i'll have a couple of nights out with friends but i just dont want to end up drinking beer every night. everyone will be happy and all i wil be thinking is i just want to be with my ex over xmas. I dont normally let things get me down or depress me easily but because at my age(38) most of my friends will be with their family and staying in on new year. I know i wil be thinking about the past year and how it has all turned out crap. i think i'll be having new year on my own. god, that sounds so sad. All i can think about is wishing it was this time last year, when we were talking of getting a house together.also her mom passed away just before we split up and that has changed her totally. she was a homely girl but now just seems to be out and about all the time and never at home. no time for a boyfriend.i guess she is coping with losing her mom like i am coping with losing my girlfriend. I know she will be sad and xmas with losing her mom and that hurts me even more because i wish i was there for her. I had to do some shopping today and all the xmas music,lights, decorations and happy kids just made me feel sad and depressed. Why cant I be happy like them. I wish i could just hibernate for 2 weeks! So i bought myself a ps3 and hope that helps get me though the holidays I just feel empty and something is missing in my life. roll on 2010 and hope for a better year. Wish i could turn thing back 18 months when i took her on a surprise trip to rome on valentines day. Edited November 28, 2009 by adamt
USMCHokie Posted November 28, 2009 Posted November 28, 2009 I've been split up from my ex for just a bit under that, so I'm in the same boat as you...as the holidays approached, I wish I was still with her to share in all the fall and winter holidays...it would have been our first halloween, thanksgiving, christmas...so she's been on my mind a lot too... So a couple days ago, I decided to book a cruise over Christmas by myself...I had never done a solo cruise before, so I'm kind of excited...but I wish so badly that my ex would magically reappear and want to go with me...but we all know that would be a terrible idea...and I know the whole point of it is to help me move on... At least it's getting my butt in the gym so I can work on my girlish figure...and break me out of my comfort zone in approaching and socializing with new people on the ship... So I guess I'll have to see how well it works...
JaggedRoad Posted November 28, 2009 Posted November 28, 2009 I was originally going to visit my cousins in Canada, but I won't be able to due to family drama. My friend invited me to go with her to Vermont, but I doubt that will happen. My plan to go skydiving was pushed back from last month to next Spring, but I might just do it around Christmas time. Meh.
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