Dreading Thanksgiving...

[4givrnt4gtr]

Anyone else dreading Thanksgiving? Wondering if the ex will communicate in some way? fighting the hope and at the same time trying to reason everything out?

 

Im having a hard time with it. Especially since yesterday the ex posted something that said he was lonely, missing "her" and wishing "she" (i put it in quotations cuz i dont want to assume anything) was with him to hold him and heal him. The only reason why I kind of assumed he was talking about me is because he used to say stuff like that to me when we were together. That he loved how nurturing I was and how I was helping him to heal from his past break up.

 

But then i think why is he putting that up on his status instead of saying it to me. I gave him an opening with the message i sent him last week, and instead of responding to it he posts stuff like that....its infuriating and frustrating, its like he wants me to hold on without telling me to.......he's messing with my head.

 

Thankfully i finally figuredo ut how to delete him from gmail, where he was posting all these things. I will never ever have to see them again.

 

 

ughhhhh but hope is so hard to kill

[GrayClouds]

Anyone else dreading Thanksgiving? Wondering if the ex will communicate in some way? fighting the hope and at the same time trying to reason everything out?

 

Im having a hard time with it. Especially since yesterday the ex posted something that said he was lonely, missing "her" and wishing "she" (i put it in quotations cuz i dont want to assume anything) was with him to hold him and heal him. The only reason why I kind of assumed he was talking about me is because he used to say stuff like that to me when we were together. That he loved how nurturing I was and how I was helping him to heal from his past break up.

 

But then i think why is he putting that up on his status instead of saying it to me. I gave him an opening with the message i sent him last week, and instead of responding to it he posts stuff like that....its infuriating and frustrating, its like he wants me to hold on without telling me to.......he's messing with my head.

 

Thankfully i finally figuredo ut how to delete him from gmail, where he was posting all these things. I will never ever have to see them again.

 

 

ughhhhh but hope is so hard to kill

 

Try to replace it with faith. I am not talking about the big "G "as in God type of faith. I am not talking about little "r" is is religion type of faith. 14 years of catholic school did pretty good care of distinguishing that. I am talking the faith of allowing you know tomorrow will be better.

 

Hope is wanting, faith is knowing, It is knowing without believing, knowing without evidence, it is knowing without commitment to a single outcome.

 

And hope is words thinking to yourself. Faith is actions, despite yourself. If you know tomorrow is going to be better, act like it today. If tomorrow is going to be better, prepare for it today so you will be ready.