honeypear Posted November 25, 2009 Posted November 25, 2009 Long story short. I met this English guy on FB a year ago and we hit it off from the get go. We would talk for hours at a time because I live in Canada and am not moving to England until February 2010. After a couple of months he told me that he loved me, we met a few times either in Toronto or England. Then he asked me to marry him in July and I said yes because I love him so much. Fast forward to beg of October I found out from the doctor I could not have children. We had discussed a few times what we would do if children was not a possibility. However, I thought he would look at me differently and it began to bother me.Then I started to have nightmares about him coming home 5 yrs from now and telling me he was leaving me because I can't have children. So I made up a lie about my age I told him I was in my mid 30's not 28. He got really angry told me I betrayed him and called off the wedding and the relationship. We still talked for days on Skype and there were many times that he would vent his anger. I decided a couple of weeks ago to go NC sent him an email saying not to contact me again. I was quite upset after that email I ended up crying on my brother's shoulder for hours and finally told him the truth of the break up that I can't have kids was afraid he would leave me eventually and that I lied to him forcing him to break up with me. My brother sent my ex-bf an email telling him everything and wished him well in the future. My ex-bf called, text, MSN, Skype, email to find out what he had just been told was true I had to admit the truth. After talking for 15 hours on Skype we decided to try again. Here the problem: I love him and I have no question he loves me. Why am I so hesitant and scared? We used to text each other all day or talk to each other for hours could finish each other's sentences. All our future plans are on again and he is moving into the house in England when I arrive in England. I don't want to blow this second chance but I am scared. Any advice??
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