teanoranges Posted November 24, 2009 Posted November 24, 2009 So, yesterday in the morning, I did in fact feel really bad. That passed quickly and I pushed it to the back of my mind calling it the 'morning blues'. I have been doing sooo good and yet fearful of relapse. It happened again today. I was on my way back from my first day of new job and suddenly got so sad. Of course, he's not here to be proud of me, he's not here to be jealous, he's not around for me to talk to... and those became thoughts of him with his girl. The way he told me he kissed her because he felt he needed to put the final end to us, and now months later he's in love with her and doing things for her he was too scared to do for me. I miss him so much. All the memories that meant so much to me now feel like nothing and one-sided. It hurts to think of how pathetic he must have thought I was to feel so sad about telling me about his new love. I guess its finally really really sinking in that we are over. I've known it was the end, but I guess now I really feel like I'm never going to see him again. I don't understand how it could happen, but it did. I really needed to get it out.
jlr Posted November 24, 2009 Posted November 24, 2009 I know how you feel. It sucks. I just moved into a new place, and though I'm excited about it, I'm also thinking of my ex alot. And it hurts like hell. Hang in there. We can get through this
angelface78 Posted November 24, 2009 Posted November 24, 2009 I know EXACTLY how you feel. My ex fiance and i were together 5 years. We broke up in July. 5 months later here i am and its just beginning to sink in that its over. He is also w somebody new and i found out he is moving in w her since his dad kicked him out of the house. The point is he is doing things w her he could never do w me. I know its because w her its easier. She has a son and no parents. It is acceptable for her to move in with him just like that. I on the other hand had greater expectations. I wanted the engagement (which i got) and the wedding w our friends and family. He couldnt do that...he was too scared. Now look at him he is facing even more responsibility. The girl has a son and has no car. He has to drive her around and pay most of the rent probably, since she works at a waterpark..which doesnt pay much. She has a son that he will now have to help her with. This is what he got himself into. I on the other hand am gonna get all i've ever wanted if God permits. I want the wedding and everything that comes along w it. I deserve this and so do my parents. Dont worry hun. Things happen for a reason. There is something better for us down the road. I can feel it
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