djtmalta Posted November 23, 2009 Posted November 23, 2009 I have been working at a job I absolutely hate for the past 5 1/2 years. I met my EX there 1 1/2 years ago and we dated right away for a little over a year. We were also engaged. My EX drove me crazy (literally I was in a psych unit for 17 days for major depression and I broke up with her while I was in there) She cried for me back, but I'd had enough at that point and didn't see any future with her. One month later I stupidly think to myself that she is the only one that will ever love me and so on. Well, by this point she absolutely has no feelings toward me at all. Now she has a boyfriend again also. Now I am heartbroken and everything else that goes along with that... Major Depression My doctor has had me off work on disability for the past 3 months for stress and I think 1 more month from now. The thing is, I am terrified to go back to work. Not only am I scared to see her smiling and laughing out loud, but she told 2 people I was in the Physc hospital and those 2 people spread it to where just about EVERYONE I work with knows. (over 100 people) Really embarrassing. I think of her everyday, stupid things remind me of her. My question is, should I quit my job and find another place to work? I hated it before I met her, she still works there and it will be so freaking hard to work knowing she is there, most people and all management know I had a breakdown because of her. Man, I feel so low and weak. Is it time to call it quits for this job and move on to another. In my job now, I make $26.00 an hour. If I quit and get the same job elsewhere I will start out making $14.00 an hour, have less benefits and less medical. But honestly I HATED my job even before her so is this a good time to quit... I just don't know how I could go back to that place after everything I just explained above. I proved to myself that I am emotionally weak and needed to be hospitalized because of a poisonous relationship. How on Earth do I expect myself to go back to work with her everyday, knowing she is dating someone new to top it all off??? I feel I might slip and have another mental breakdown. I don't want that. It's not worth any amount of money. Please, give me your honest opinions on what I should do. I am so confused. D
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