richard91 Posted November 21, 2009 Posted November 21, 2009 this is my first post on a forum ever, but the advice here sounds good and i feel like i need some advice from someone whos dealt with this before or knows of it. ill start by telling u about my past with my gf we met back at school, we were going out for just under a year when for no reason i stopped talking to herfor 2 weeks, i didnt even tell her why, even though i love her. during this 2 weeks she sent me a text at 4 in the morning telling me she was pregnant. the next day i went to see her and just see what she wanted to do. she said she still had some feelings for me. i had to go on a family holiday almost immediatly after she had the abortion, and when i came home i found out that she is now with somebody else. i decided that as long as shes happy then i can cope, surely, so i didnt make any contact at all for almost 15 months untill i made myself a facebook account and she added me. so we got to talking, and she is still with max, and i find myself jealous as hell. she wanted to meet up and i figured for old times sake id do it. well when we met i got bored wandering around so asked her home with me, and her friend. and this is where im at a complete loss. there was almost no akwkardness at all, it was just like old times, she was snuggling with me and we were watching a film etc, she had a bf still so i didnt let it go further.. even if i do hate the spotty little freak, i wouldnt want to hurt him in that way. about a week after seeing her for every single day she admits she has fallen back in love with me.. and personally i dont think i ever stopped, thinking about our good times everyday and feeling "butterflys" in my stomach and a lurch of guilt everytime i did. the next day she split up with her boyfriend, i didnt know when i called her and she was crying a lot, i felt like it was my fault again, and even though i wanted her.. i wanted her happy first, if its with me.. bonus. she said she would probably get back with me now, but the next day she came round, we were kissing, snuggling, being intimate how we used to be etc, then she looks me in the eyes and says "stop kissing me, it'll make it harder for you". confused i asked why and she said i cant ever see you again, we had a long talk and she cried whilst i held her. i send her an email saying how i feel basically and she replies i cant just not see you anymore.. and now were still talking and meeting up, and she hasnt got back with her ex, as much as i love her.. should i really be with her? it just feels like it was meant to be. im sorry this is a long message, but i feel like i should just tell you everything incase i missed something important in the past and didnt realise. thanks for your support
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