ItsAllGoodAgain Posted November 20, 2009 Posted November 20, 2009 Ok, I'm on week 3 of NC. Last night I'm going through my files and I came across a picture of my ex and I. This is the only thing I have from our relationship. I had deleted her # from my phone, wrote it on the back of this picture and threw it in the filing cabinet. Well I broke NC and sent her a text, "I miss your smile". There was no response but I honestly feel pretty good. I didn't feel as if I let myself down. I didn't feel like I had just messed up. I truley felt that I was just thinking out loud, per say. I wasn't feeling sad or needy either. Is this part of the process? I believe I'm really on my way.
sean1970 Posted November 20, 2009 Posted November 20, 2009 Ok, I'm on week 3 of NC. Last night I'm going through my files and I came across a picture of my ex and I. This is the only thing I have from our relationship. I had deleted her # from my phone, wrote it on the back of this picture and threw it in the filing cabinet. Well I broke NC and sent her a text, "I miss your smile". There was no response but I honestly feel pretty good. I didn't feel as if I let myself down. I didn't feel like I had just messed up. I truley felt that I was just thinking out loud, per say. I wasn't feeling sad or needy either. Is this part of the process? I believe I'm really on my way. On my way to work, as they were talking about the Michigan vs Ohio State game this morning, I had an almost uncontrollable urge to text her "Go BLUE!" (she is an alum). I doubt I would have gotten a reply (it was not a question for one), nor do I think I would have felt bad at that moment. It is just that 2-3 days later I think I would want to walk in front of a slow moving bus. Thats what stopped me...
McGrupp Posted November 20, 2009 Posted November 20, 2009 (edited) i almost texted my ex the other night drunk, "you're my YOKO" my friends said it wouldve been hilarious though im not sure she wouldve got the reference Edited November 20, 2009 by McGrupp
Author ItsAllGoodAgain Posted November 20, 2009 Author Posted November 20, 2009 She broke up the Beatles man!! jk. If thats the reference. Or Bare naked ladies "you can be my yoko ono"...ball and chain. The things we think may be harmless could do the complete opposite. I've been concerned in the past and would hope for some reaction, but this time I just felt like letting it be known. Maybe in a few days I'll feel the pull. The last time I sent her anything was a happy birthday wish. After that one I felt guilty and pissed at myself. This one not so much. I hope this is a sign of me getting over the hump and seeing the light. I know there's still a long rd just for the simple fact I had the urge to text her in the first place. But, those urges are slowly becoming non-existant.
sadgirl1 Posted November 20, 2009 Posted November 20, 2009 Good, i´m not the only one with this huge urge to text them! When somethings happening i always have him on my mind to text to as he was always the first to know the news and now I miss him so much and I can´t share my world with him and I miss him to share his world with me :-( Thats simply sad and painful
sean1970 Posted November 20, 2009 Posted November 20, 2009 Good, i´m not the only one with this huge urge to text them! When somethings happening i always have him on my mind to text to as he was always the first to know the news and now I miss him so much and I can´t share my world with him and I miss him to share his world with me :-( Thats simply sad and painful Sad and painful that I still have the urge from such events after 3 months of no regular contact... Hate that....
j_cali_man Posted November 21, 2009 Posted November 21, 2009 The urge to text is still there after 3 months? I'm in the middle of month one and literally took the battery out of my cell just to make it harder to text (hassle). I sure hope by month 3 (unless some miracle apology and reuinon happens--yeah right!) that I don't have the urge. Crushed.. but gonna be recycled into somethin better =) J
Author ItsAllGoodAgain Posted November 21, 2009 Author Posted November 21, 2009 "It is just that 2-3 days later I think I would want to walk in front of a slow moving bus. Thats what stopped me... I'm sorta feeling this...lol! I tell you what, when you think whatever you're doing (in regards to contacting your ex) is harmless and nice, remember there are plenty of buses just waiting for you!! I don't feel too bad but there is that small feeling of rejection. Live and learn!!
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