Don't want him but wont let no one else have him either!

[DerrangedThoughts]

Going through a touch time with my self, I broke up w/ my X b/c he cheated. He had a baby w/ this girl now I dont' want him but don't want him to be w/ her either......I have all kinds of evil thoughts going through my head. Why can't I just leave it alone.

 

I feel that if he is w/ her he gets away w/ it all and I just can't let him step on me like that so I feel like all kinds of bad stuff.

 

He's on probation, I could easily have him arrested! Or I can have him beat up....Oh God...such horrible things but why....why does he get to walk away w/out getting hurt!

 

I'm so infuriated by what he's done, I want him to suffer! I'm obsessed w/ it ! I know it sound so horrible but I'm only being real honest hear and I haven't done anything yet.

 

I don't want him b/c he's hurt me so much but I can't see him w/ someone else, I can't see him happy while I'm miserable!

 

I hate him so much!

 

Someone please......sanity needed!

[Arabess]

I think in your state of mind...perhaps calling a 'hot line crisis center' so you could speak to someone on a one to one would probably be a good idea.

 

People on here can share various opinions with you, but while you are questioning the 'evil thoughts' in your head towards this man, his girlfriend and their baby...it would be a good idea to talk it out before it becomes bigger than you are and you start thinking some really foolish thoughts.

 

Jealousy is a dangerous thing. It can play tricks on your mind.

 

Good luck Derranged Thoughts.....PLEASE get some help.