4givrnt4gtr Posted November 16, 2009 Posted November 16, 2009 (edited) Lately Ive felt a bit jipped.... Like, I totally wasted the better part of the last year, like, i was sucked into the a black hole and nothing I did or said mattered and I got spit out on the other side. My life didnt change one bit. My life today is pretty much the same as it was last year, only im more bitter now. It feels like....i was in a comma, dreamed the whole relationship, then woke up and had to go back to my old life....with a vague feeling that something is missing and I obviously cant get it back. His life didnt change either (i think). He is still broken hearted and frustrated. Im chosing to see his broken hearted songs as him still pining for the ex before me, which was what he was doing when i met him. I didnt even matter. What a waste of time and effort and pacience. how sad Ive been toying with the idea of allowing the maybe door to be opened again. But i just cant do it. I cannot stomach the constant wondering, whether he is saying what he is saying because of me or because of "her". Whether he is doing what he is doing, because he is working up his courage to get to me or to because he is still wallowing in misery because of her. Its so unclear and bs and I know that i shouldnt even bother unless he is knocking at my door begging for me to come back. Its not like im talking to him...its just that in my mind I had closed that door, and it has been opened again...only its so confusing. I can shut it again, but then I feel cheated. Anyone felt the same at some point? Like you wasted all your time and energy for someone that might not even remember (or care) you are alive? Edited November 16, 2009 by 4givrnt4gtr
PandaStillLovesBunny Posted November 16, 2009 Posted November 16, 2009 I hear ya -- except that my life did change: I'm quite a bit poorer now
Thebob Posted November 16, 2009 Posted November 16, 2009 Lately Ive felt a bit jipped.... Like, I totally wasted the better part of the last year, like, i was sucked into the a black hole and nothing I did or said mattered and I got spit out on the other side. My life didnt change one bit. My life today is pretty much the same as it was last year, only im more bitter now. It feels like....i was in a comma, dreamed the whole relationship, then woke up and had to go back to my old life....with a vague feeling that something is missing and I obviously cant get it back. His life didnt change either (i think). He is still broken hearted and frustrated. Im chosing to see his broken hearted songs as him still pining for the ex before me, which was what he was doing when i met him. I didnt even matter. What a waste of time and effort and pacience. how sad Ive been toying with the idea of allowing the maybe door to be opened again. But i just cant do it. I cannot stomach the constant wondering, whether he is saying what he is saying because of me or because of "her". Whether he is doing what he is doing, because he is working up his courage to get to me or to because he is still wallowing in misery because of her. Its so unclear and bs and I know that i shouldnt even bother unless he is knocking at my door begging for me to come back. Its not like im talking to him...its just that in my mind I had closed that door, and it has been opened again...only its so confusing. I can shut it again, but then I feel cheated. Anyone felt the same at some point? Like you wasted all your time and energy for someone that might not even remember (or care) you are alive? It's because you realize how much better life is when you have someone there to care for you. And when that addiction or person is gone, then your life seems dull and boring and there is nothing to look forward to. It sucks, and I have been going through it since the end of August. So ya, I really want to find someone soon to fill in that void, but I know I shouldn't look to hard cause unexpected things happen unexpectedly and they normally turn out great. I just hope God has a path for me and will lead me to a beautiful and wonderful girl who loves me for me and I love her for her. Thebob
Template Posted November 16, 2009 Posted November 16, 2009 Oh I definitely feel jipped. I've moved my life here for this person, and what do I get out of it? More bills, and no support structure. I've long realized that life definitely isn't fair, and like thebob says, "I just hope God has a path for me and will lead me to a beautiful and wonderful girl who loves me for me and I love her for her."
lostmirthfulness Posted November 16, 2009 Posted November 16, 2009 Yes I feel jipped, angry, bitter, etc etc. I know having somebody else would replace those feelings, but then how right is that to use somebody else to fill in holes?
Thebob Posted November 16, 2009 Posted November 16, 2009 It's not right, and that is why you need to have that person come to you, and not have you come to them. You need to give that person 100% of your love, and nothing else or it won't work. YOu need to be 100% healed and you have to have 100% intentions towards your new lover/ gf/ bf. Thebob
angelface78 Posted November 16, 2009 Posted November 16, 2009 Yup ...i feel this way. 5 year relationship and engagement only for it to end and him to jump into another relationship within a month. He is still with the girl. I dont even know if he remembers i exist. Its the worst feeling in the world. 5 years down the F***** drain!!!
threebyfate Posted November 16, 2009 Posted November 16, 2009 Consider this. If you waste time and effort on people who don't treat you right or people who aren't compatible, it's no wonder that bitterness sets in. It's like constantly trying to bail out a leaky boat. Draining and futile. Instead of repeating the same cycle of behaviour, why not chock it up to experience earned and promise yourself that the next time, you're not going to be so naive about relationships? People think love is enough. It so AIN'T! Think about it.
Template Posted November 16, 2009 Posted November 16, 2009 People think love is enough. It so AIN'T! Think about it. I totally agree. It's takes work. Unfortunately my ex disagrees with the work part. It does suck to be the person who commits, and the other doesn't.
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