JolliX Posted November 15, 2009 Posted November 15, 2009 Yesterday was horrible (see one of my other posts to find out if you want), but I decided to go out with some friends last night and see if I could have fun. Well one friend drank way too much, and was all energetic and pumped to hit on beautiful ladies all night long (and there were a lot of them at our hole in the wall bar, which was odd). I drank a little to get abuzz going, but knew better than to over do it b/c of the day I had had, so I kept an eye on this friend to keep him out of trouble, and I must say, he dragged me into some situations that I would not have chosen, and they were actually very fun. Because of him being a drunk, and pushy, I talked to the hottest girl in the bar, as in conversation, not pitiful one failed pick up line. Now she had a boyfriend of 3 years whom she loved, but her name of Megan, she went to school for psychology, etc. and I managed to make her laugh a lot. In the end it appeared to be a rather fruitless endevor as she already had her man, but having pulled together to self esteem to approach, talk to her, and even make her laugh made me feel very good about myself. This same thing happened through out the night. He kept wanting to hit on/talk to girls, so I kept being the ice breaker/wing man/person keeping him out of trouble all night. Not once did we cause trouble, but every amazing looking girl in the bar had been talked to, and laughter (and a couple numbers) were given out from each one. I can't say that I'm excited about having potential dates right now (I have two numbers from last night), but I feel much better about myself (I honeslty don't think I thought about my ex one time while interacting with all those girls). To top things off (in a good way), today I had a lunch date (I know, lunch dates aren't real dates, but it was my idea b/c I wasn't sure I was ready for any kind of real date). The girl was cute, interesting, and she laughed at my jokes (not too shabby I have to say). I wasn' awestruck by anything about her, but I didn't suspect that I had hit the point yet where I would be awestruck by anyone really. After the lunch date, we talked for a while, and then parted way. The first thing that occured to me, is that while I had lunch with her, I had only compared her to my ex once maybe twice at most, as after we both started talking, I forgot about comparing her at all. So all in all, it's been a nice 150 degree turn from yesterday (150 because I feel much much better, but I know I'm not completely alright yet).
Lamak Posted November 15, 2009 Posted November 15, 2009 Sounds like you're on the right path to moving on. Told you it was a good idea to go out.
Author JolliX Posted November 16, 2009 Author Posted November 16, 2009 You were right, it was a great idea to go out. Good night of work on self control (not drinking too much), and self esteem building.
nobleguy Posted November 16, 2009 Posted November 16, 2009 The days when I have things to do that are enjoyable are easily better than the ones where I'm stuck indoors. Even chatting to ladies for the sake of it helps drag the self-esteem back up a little. And it's just enjoyable to have some real company. Like you, I feel nothing around them and have no emotions towards them whatsoever. But it's good anyway.
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