blah... my sat night check in

[lilbelle]

Okay, so I'm doing alright. I mean I miss him still, and cried very little since Thursday but I still am hanging onto hope, I have no idea how long that will last but I'm ready for it to leave I guess. So I went out last night and met this guy. He looked alot like the ex. He had this great voice and we talked for almost an hour. I didn't get his number. I know his name and the area he lives in but that's it. Later someone asked me why I didn't ask for his number because after he left I kept thinking I should have. I believe I couldn't do it because he reminded me too much of the ex. It was just so weird. Now I am wondering if I will ever see that guy again and that perhaps I should have been more receptive. I mean he was clearly interested. Oh well. I had considered going out tonight but just not feeling it. I think I'm gonna just go sit in the hot tub and relax. I'm still hoping ex will come to some revelation this weekend and come back but I don't know why I want him too. I don't know why I can't let go. I'm frustrated over it and going through an anger stage followed by sadness. Takes so long to heal a heart. I think I just gave my all and now I'm scared to ever do that again with anyone. Oh well. Happy Saturday, be back later tonight I'm sure.

[Lamak]

Don't feel so pressured to get into another relationship if you're not ready. You probably feel a ton of emotions, but you're doing a good thing taking time out for yourself to relax. You can surround yourself with tons of friends and excitement, but it's really up to you to move on. Happy Saturday.

[name witheld]

yeah, I let a couple of 'fish' loose in the beginning. Dunno if it was lack of confidence or just not knowing what to say! I think you forget how to pull lol.

Just gotta get out there and keep talking in my opnion, preferably without a motive. Its good I feel comfortable again with the ladies. You can add the motive afterwards, or even better let them!! lol.