sean1970 Posted November 13, 2009 Posted November 13, 2009 I'm a posting fiend these days.. Dishing out help like I actually know what Im talking about... But damn if today is not a tough day for some reason... Last night was fine (maybe it was the 3 glasses of wine but...) but today I can't get her off my mind... Came really close to looking her up on match.com, FB (just her profile photo, not 'friends' anymore)... ugh... How did I get here? Sorry...
HeavenOrHell Posted November 13, 2009 Posted November 13, 2009 No need to apologise for how you feel! I feel the same. Grief is so up and down and all over the place, might be a bit easier if it were a straight line.. I'm a posting fiend these days.. Dishing out help like I actually know what Im talking about... But damn if today is not a tough day for some reason... Last night was fine (maybe it was the 3 glasses of wine but...) but today I can't get her off my mind... Came really close to looking her up on match.com, FB (just her profile photo, not 'friends' anymore)... ugh... How did I get here? Sorry...
Ms. Joolie Posted November 13, 2009 Posted November 13, 2009 During the week I sit in front of the computer for 40 hours at work. Over the years, I had gotten into the habit of constantly checking on the ex. It was a habit, a bad habit - it was an addiction. For over three years I would find him on the net when I needed that fix. This Tuesday, I was finally going to do it. I was going to promise myself not to look anymore. I made a promise here on LS, and I've stuck with it... because I couldn't break my own promise to myself, right? What kind of person would that make me? I'm on the fourth day of that promise. Haven't looked. And the strangest thing is, I don't ever want to look again. I'm SO HAPPY I promised myself to do without. I thought it would kill me not to know, but it doesn't phase me. In fact, I was so ready for that. So ready to let go. I don't know what part of the healing process you are in, but consider making the promise to yourself to give up the internet thing in regards to looking for her. It was the most powerful step so far in my healing process. NOT to look, NOT to bring his face or words back into my life.... It's like he's not in my life anymore! Lol. It feels good. Not that I don't care for him, but that the addiction is gone.
stace79 Posted November 13, 2009 Posted November 13, 2009 Don't feel badly at all. I'm with you today. I have literally had to do some deep breathing as I held my phone in my hand all set to dial him up. It's excruciating b/c I sent him a nice e-mail last night and I have gotten no response. (It's likely because his family are visiting so he probably didn't see it last night and he's working today.) I'm a wreck. So I understand totally where you're coming from. Some days it's easy, some days it's damned near impossible. I had wine last night too though so maybe we should both try that again? haha
lilbelle Posted November 13, 2009 Posted November 13, 2009 yeah, me too. Got asked out on a date. Really handsome guy, just my type, don't even care to go. Told him I would think about it. Just to soon and I don't want anyone but A. So sick. Last night on the way home I was so close to driving by his place. WHY? I don't know to look at his car, fing weird. Feel like a stalker. Luckily I didn't. Came so close to breaking nc yesterday and glad I posted here first. Made it through another day. One day at a time. That's the only way to deal with heartache.
GrayClouds Posted November 13, 2009 Posted November 13, 2009 . Last night was fine (maybe it was the 3 glasses of wine but...) Sorry... It amazing what even a little alcohol can do to your head the next day. I find I have to make a very conscious decision about how I want to feel next day even if I am going to only have a couple of beer. It always make it a bit more melancholy the day and takes me half the day realize why.
stace79 Posted November 13, 2009 Posted November 13, 2009 yeah, me too. Got asked out on a date. Really handsome guy, just my type, don't even care to go. Told him I would think about it. Just to soon and I don't want anyone but A. So sick. Last night on the way home I was so close to driving by his place. WHY? I don't know to look at his car, fing weird. Feel like a stalker. Luckily I didn't. Came so close to breaking nc yesterday and glad I posted here first. Made it through another day. One day at a time. That's the only way to deal with heartache. Haha..don't feel bad. If my ex didn't live six hours away I'd be driving by for sure. I was even looking at plane tickets just now in the hopes that he might let me come visit him. Pathetic, yes, I know.
Author sean1970 Posted November 13, 2009 Author Posted November 13, 2009 It amazing what even a little alcohol can do to your head the next day. I find I have to make a very conscious decision about how I want to feel next day even if I am going to only have a couple of beer. It always make it a bit more melancholy the day and takes me half the day realize why. Could not have hit the nail on the head any more square... If I take it easy the night before, Im ok the next day... Overdue it (like maybe last night) and 'Tom Cruise on Oprah couch emotional... Just in a bad way. Thanks guys...
nobleguy Posted November 14, 2009 Posted November 14, 2009 If I go out at the moment I think it's fair to say I overdo it a bit. But then I wake up early and feel fine and say to myself "Ha! What do they know? Alcohol works a treat! I feel good this morning!". Then when the alcohol finally leaves my body (usually after lunchtime...) it hits. And it hits for the rest of the day... Doesn't stop me though LOL!
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