Cranialrupture Posted November 11, 2009 Posted November 11, 2009 Ok, I just want to see if others happen to be going through or have been through what I am. My rollercoaster ride is doing funny things. The hills are not as steep but tend to be alot more rapid. I am going through many different emotions in one day. One moment I am great, next I am down, then mad, then ok, then down, then great, then mad, etc. For the past few days it has been like this. Is there anyone else going through such rollercoaster emotions on such a fast scale? Their not big up and down swings, just alot of them. Its getting really annoying.
FeelingLonely98 Posted November 12, 2009 Posted November 12, 2009 Ok, I just want to see if others happen to be going through or have been through what I am. My rollercoaster ride is doing funny things. The hills are not as steep but tend to be alot more rapid. I am going through many different emotions in one day. One moment I am great, next I am down, then mad, then ok, then down, then great, then mad, etc. For the past few days it has been like this. Is there anyone else going through such rollercoaster emotions on such a fast scale? Their not big up and down swings, just alot of them. Its getting really annoying. Well, don't say you were not warned about the rollercoaster. I don't get mad, just sad and disappointed. And I still don't have many hills (I assume the hills are when you feel better?), mostly down all the time. But for me it's only been 10 weeks. I do project outwardly that I am strong and moving on and even post here about these strong actions and steps I'm taking. But INSIDE? On boy, What a different story. I am crying inside though I haven't shed a tear for her in more than a month. (I cried the 1st month, Day 1-Day30 more that Icried the previous 46 years of my life. WTF, I never cry! I've become such a wuss.) I can not get my mind off of her. My heart still loves her like the day we were married. DoubleWTF!!! Can I please stop loving her soon? Can I stop thinking of her? She is gone from the house, she is gone from my life, she is about to be my XW ... but she is not gone from head, heart, and soul. Can anyone help with this? I'm doing all the outward things and stuff. So that's how it is with me CR. Please buckle your safety strap and keep all hands inside the car!!!!!! PEACE!
dazedandconfused2008 Posted November 12, 2009 Posted November 12, 2009 I know that very well. I can be ok one minute...then just like that i get hit with sadness or anger and brings me right down....then i change my thinking and i get back up. Its gotta be part of the process... I feel the same way as you FL98. Im sad inside...but i dont cry hardly now.I was like that dude in that movie forgetting sarah marshall. Crying constantly... Just in time it will settle even more down...
Author Cranialrupture Posted November 12, 2009 Author Posted November 12, 2009 Its just weird that the emotioncoaster has started decreasing in severity but sped up on the up and downs for me.
Author Cranialrupture Posted November 12, 2009 Author Posted November 12, 2009 I can only assume thats part of my healing, because I am working my a$$ off on moving forward, I just hope its not a bad sign, but a good one.
hbogie Posted November 12, 2009 Posted November 12, 2009 Yep... certainly can relate. Approaching month 4 now. Less extreme but more frequent ups and downs. Also those "deep down" feelings.... yep. If anything in some ways I love her more since she left. I know I took her for granted when she was here. But I know I was a good husband too.... heck, she still says so! I can't wait to get off this ride. But with final signing 4 weeks from today I expect it to start getting worse again.
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