feelingempty Posted November 10, 2009 Posted November 10, 2009 He called I answered, I was like little school girl and now I'm a crying fool. He does not love me anymore ................I had a feeling..........but now hearing it I'm devastated he says there is no one else but my gut is saying different. We have to split stuff (I'm still seeing the lawyer Wed) His final words has more effect on me than the letter he sent the ex or the dating sites he was on. I'm pretty down I can't stop crying I feel worse than I did 5 days ago I'm a fool No one listen to my advice b/c I can't even practice it myself. I will always be a hopeless romantic.................Tonight will be a very very long night. If anyone cares to talk with me would be appreciated LS is all I have
Thebob Posted November 10, 2009 Posted November 10, 2009 He called I answered, I was like little school girl and now I'm a crying fool. He does not love me anymore ................I had a feeling..........but now hearing it I'm devastated he says there is no one else but my gut is saying different. We have to split stuff (I'm still seeing the lawyer Wed) His final words has more effect on me than the letter he sent the ex or the dating sites he was on. I'm pretty down I can't stop crying I feel worse than I did 5 days ago I'm a fool No one listen to my advice b/c I can't even practice it myself. I will always be a hopeless romantic.................Tonight will be a very very long night. If anyone cares to talk with me would be appreciated LS is all I have Start NC immediately and dont look back Thebob
AliveAndKicking Posted November 10, 2009 Posted November 10, 2009 *hug* Cut yourself some slack. You'vedone nothing that I have done many times over. Next time he calls you'll know what to do or, in this case, NOT do: don't pick up. Yes, I know, it is easier said than done. Remember how you are feeling now and draw strength from the pain. Apparantly he called you to tell you that he doesn't love you? If that is the case he is very cruel. No one deserves that. Breakups are hard enough without deliberate cruelty. Somepeople do that- I guess it makes them feel tough or powerful to know that they can hurt someone, make them cry, etc. That's pretty sick if you ask me. Ifyou need to have a cry then don't hold it in- let it out- it's okay Tomorrow is a new day and guess what? You just pick up where you left off and move forward as you were before his call. Follow through with your lawyer's appoinment, and carry on. Lesson learned,right? Right! Dust yourself off, take a deep breath, lift your chin up, and carry on. Eyes forward, looking towards the future, towards your new life, and don't look back! YOU can do it!
Author feelingempty Posted November 10, 2009 Author Posted November 10, 2009 Thank you for both your insights I thought I was stronger He is still the same put all the blame on me why he did the dating sites and x-letters. I thought about everything that went on in the last 5 years I mean everything and you know what good riddance I may not have been the nicest all the time but he just didn't get that the lying and being sneaky about various things and never standing up for me never made me feel like I`m the one. You know what I mean I let this to continue to happen and become feeling sick about myself. I was a strong woman once a long time ago I`m not hard to look at either ya I gained weight the last 3 years but I was depressed, lonely and always felt cheated on. Heck this past summer I spent tons of money to go on a nice holiday with him and his two kids (this about 3 months after the dating sites) I caught him on a dating site one morning checking girls out in the city where we were!!! How dumb can I be like I left my 3 kids at home (they are older) I`m with him and his and spending freely he is still looking. I must be freaking dumb a real dumb azz Have at it Mr. wonderful to bad you couldn`t listen to how I was feeling ya you dumped me but you have done me a favour.
Odyssey Posted November 10, 2009 Posted November 10, 2009 (edited) FeelingEmpty, just read your posts. I think he gave up on your relationship a long time ago. I feel sad to hear you're hurting over this guy, who has lied repeatedly and treated you like crap for so long. Stick to NC and don't give this idiot the satisfaction. It might not feel like it right now, but you will get through this, i promise. Edited November 10, 2009 by Odyssey
Author feelingempty Posted November 10, 2009 Author Posted November 10, 2009 I can't stop crying I was doing so well I guess I was living in denial. Went to the mail today and some x-mas gifts for his kids came in. I broke down my poor g/f , looks like she was going to cry. In essence A real bad day!
Author feelingempty Posted November 10, 2009 Author Posted November 10, 2009 I believe I need help A flood gate opened I'm drinking I know It don't help but onions hurt my eyes.............................I thinking way too deep
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