this disturbs me

[feelingempty]

I can't sleep, I keep reading this letter he wrote to an x g/f he dated for 8 months then he met me. He was on the phone talking to me at the same time he wrote this to her he was pissed at me for giving him a somewhat of a hard time about going out that night.

 

 

Hey,

 

I know you likely may not answer, but I really didn't know what to do after our last conversation, not sure if you remember it.

 

Anyway, how are you doing?

 

I constantly think of you and wonder how you are doing.

 

I wish things had been much different and that we could have worked things out.

 

We had such different lives before and I guess we both thought we could have made things work, at least I know I did.

 

If you should ever consider it, reply to this email or if you don't want me to send again, do the same letting me know that you don't.

 

You could also call me in the next couple of weeks at xxx-xxx-xxxx, ask for me.

 

You were and are at some times still the love of my life, I have never experienced anything even close to what I felt with you.

 

I truly wish things had worked out differently.

 

 

This is a 5 year common law relationship he works out of town every week after week what should i think?

 

I get one small email from him stating

 

Sorry again

 

I am sorry for doing it again but not sorry for why i did it

 

 

Look here he is a 44 year old man I want to talk about it but then and again NC i put in place but he don't seem to care

 

I'm very sick inside

[feelingempty]

I suppose this was a stupid post was just wondering is this my fault i pushed him into writing an ex b/c he was mad at me just like the dating sites he was caught on 6 months ago?

[beachbabyblues]

You did not "push" him into anything. You can not control or change or take repsonsibilty for his actions. Don't blame yourself, it's not about you. You did NOTHING wrong.