/sigh...

[JolliX]

Last night I hit miserable again. I was going to hang out with friends, but then I just felt so much like crap that I didn't want to do anything but sleep. Had martial arts class today (an open gym, picked the one that the ex doesn't go to just so I wouldn't have to see her), but being there still just made me feel miserable.

 

Craptastic part is that I love the class, but can't help but feel like crap just from being in the building. Also, to make me feel even worse, I started out the week feeling very good, almost happy even, and now I've hit this low again. I know that I'll feel the same way Monday because I have my class again, and this is one that isn't an optional open gym, so she will be there (and if it's like last week, she'll bring some damned guy with her that will give me the death look).

 

What I have been doing to try to feel better isn't really working either. I've picked up several things that I've alway wanted to do, and if this being dumped crap hadn't happen, I would enjoy so much. However, it over all makes me not feel any better.

 

Words of wisdom, advice, criticism? Thanks.

[GrayClouds]

Last night I hit miserable again. I was going to hang out with friends, but then I just felt so much like crap that I didn't want to do anything but sleep. Had martial arts class today (an open gym, picked the one that the ex doesn't go to just so I wouldn't have to see her), but being there still just made me feel miserable.

 

Craptastic part is that I love the class, but can't help but feel like crap just from being in the building. Also, to make me feel even worse, I started out the week feeling very good, almost happy even, and now I've hit this low again. I know that I'll feel the same way Monday because I have my class again, and this is one that isn't an optional open gym, so she will be there (and if it's like last week, she'll bring some damned guy with her that will give me the death look).

 

What I have been doing to try to feel better isn't really working either. I've picked up several things that I've alway wanted to do, and if this being dumped crap hadn't happen, I would enjoy so much. However, it over all makes me not feel any better.

 

Words of wisdom, advice, criticism? Thanks.

 

Sometime we have to fake it until it becomes real. Going through the motions like working out even when you don't want to still does good. And any one who uses the word Craptastic is doing ok.

 

And if he gives you the death look give him dignity. It is the best revenge. Or just start picking your nose, he wont know how to respond (and I am serious about that).

[rickigal]

And any one who uses the word Craptastic is doing ok.

 

LOL, You have a point!

[lilbelle]

Man, this hits so close to home. I'm in craptastic mood as well.

So, I unjoined my other gym when I moved, fees too high, etc.

Then the gym the ex goes to calls me. A guy named Sam. I don't know this guy don't know how he got my number, anything. He sets an appointment to see me. I had to fly to San Fran at the last minute and do some work for a company and meet their owner. I missed the appt with Sam. so ex finishes working out at around 10 each night Sam calls at 9:30ish mentions he's still at the gym, asks me if I still want to meet, I'm like yeah, but I have to go to Cincy and my weekends really busy and I'll be back in town Sunday night, which was the original plan. So he says to meet on Tuesday and suggests an hour. I tell him that won't work, has to be in the morning, because I know ex will be there working out then. Seems strange doesn't it???? Like maybe ex is probing although this is far fetched and obviously I'm paranoid at this point. Now I don't know wether to join that gym or not, I love the gym, i mean really love it but damn....

So if ex found out I was going to be out of town all weekend, maybe that is what drove him to leave town too. Way too much thinking into all of this, I'm not coping well at all today.