lilbelle Posted November 6, 2009 Posted November 6, 2009 Im sick of it. I just lay here and I can't get it out of my head.. The repeats of things. I get so frustrated I have to get up and do sit ups. Then my mind calms back down. I lay down and voila, repeat again. It's like a grinding wheel in my head. Day 5 was okay until now. I'm exhausted with all of this. It's too late to take a pill as I have to be up in 4 hours. I am no where near falling asleep and I'm frankly going nuts in my head.
onewillburn Posted November 6, 2009 Posted November 6, 2009 It's anxiety and it will calm down eventually as long as you remain NC. I didn't really get depressed/upset over the break up until a few weeks ago when I lost my job the same day I had a really unpleasant visit with my ex. I couldn't eat or sleep and my eyes burnt from all of the crying. I watched, like, three seasons of Entourage back to back because I couldn't function. The distraction was nice, and seeing Ari Gold's character so much kind of gave me back some confidence (he's a major *******, but he gets **** done in case you haven't seen the show). Movies and tv shows, though never a big indulgence for me in the past, seem to do well at distracting me when I'm feeling really raw to the point where normal functions (eating, sleeping) become difficult tasks. I know the pain that you're feeling. You can't sleep until you have to sleep because you're so exhausted, otherwise your mind is too busy to let you sleep. I suggest to keep distracting yourself with things you like to do no matter how cheesy you would find them in another context. Maybe pick up a hobby you dropped a long time ago. Maybe exercise intensively around the time you go to bed so that you're already exhausted. I suggest these things, but the biggest healer is going to be time. There will be rough days and rough nights, but you're strong enough to get through them and eventually it won't hurt as much.
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