amtz Posted November 6, 2009 Posted November 6, 2009 Hi everyone, I THANK GOD big time in coming across this awesome forum other wise I would probably be totally wrecked or at least more than what I am right now... So I will be brief with my side of the story. 9 months ago my Mom owned this Nail Saloon an tells me that there is a nice girl working there. A month later I go into her Saloon to check out the place and the fine employees, a month later I become really good friends with this girl an get really well with each other. Over time she brakes up with her BF and she starts telling me how she wishes a guy like me... In a few weeks she gets back with her ex only to fail again for good and tells me that she misses me so bad!!! So finally we got together she moved over to my place and for 2 months everything was just perfect!!! Everyone saw us as sweethearts and said that we looked extremely good and best of all happy and in love!!! One day I started singing to her this dumb @$$ song with the wrong lyrics I may add, and she gets upset.... I decided to sleep over it and to keep my space since every time we had a small argument I was the one to make the move and fix things but this time I decided not since the problem was not so bad and I treated her with respect always!!! We never had an extremely big argument just small ones and they were fixed with in minutes and rare!! So after a week I decided to make my move only to find out that she didn't wanted to be with me again!!! I was completely caught of guard since the issue was not a big deal at all!!! I never cheated, I never came home drunk or smelling with someone elses perfume I WAS DEVASTATED!!!! I let another week go by, just to let things calm down, but in the mean time I asked for opinions... Family, friends, co-workers that knew each other and everyone told me that the issue wasn't so big to get to the point to a brake down. In fact they all said this was just an excuse to get rid of me and that she looked very calm in other words she was not in love. (I may add during this week we lived together but we didn't sleep or talked to each other) So finally Monday came and I knocked the door and asked for a few moments to talk... I asked how she felt during the week that we were not together and she said fine. I then talked to her in a nice calm way so that she would know how I was feeling and what she was about to loose (future plans, projects, what I had done for her etc.) this went on for half an hour or so... We finally hugged and said thanks for this fine 2 months together and that if she ever needed something I would be for her despite the fact that we were not together anymore but that she needed to leave since it wasn't healthy for us to be together... I then took a shower since I needed to bake payments and I herd she was packing which was tormenting me!!! I asked her when she would leave and she said with in a few hours, I told her that I was about to leave and that when she leave if that she could leave the keys in mail box... Once again I bare hugged her, gave her a few cheek kisses and told her that I wouldn't stop thinking of her in a long time and in the same time that if she ever missed me to let me know and that we would talk about it calmly (my eyes were so watery & she dropped some tears as well) First day with our her I see one of her close friends and she tells me all this crazy $hit!!! That on Sunday they met for a coffee and she told her that on Halloween she met this hot guy and that they kissed!!! And that best part was that her EX cousins saw her kissing with him!!!! I'm so were in the hell em I ??!!!! She used me or what the hell?? I was just used to forget her past relation?!!! Now everyone says that she only used me to forget her ex since he was an @$$. And that I was dumb by giving her a lot of liberty to go out and stuff, since her ex had her locked must of the times and with me she tasted liberty and liked it, but sooner or later she would pay a very high price!! That if she really loved me she wouldn't leave a handsome, intelligent with an extremely nice sense of hummer guy like (people say this NOT ME) but leaving all this behind she played with someone else feelings and that NO ONE DESERVES THAT!! And for me to be calm since I truly put my heart into the relation and that GOD one day will reward me for my honest and kind feelings!! 2 weeks have past and I feel in between... I feel calm knowing I did everything with my heart and that eventually God will reward me with someone better... I wont lie, in times I feel like braking into tears (like now) but I know she aint worth a tear of mine and that sooner or later she will bump into a very high, hard wall and will see what she has lost!!! I don't wish her the worst either!!! Friends of her say that how stupid she was buy leaving a guy like me and that sooner or later she will notice it, but as of today the only truth is that she is gone and that I'm single!!! That I got fucl<ed only to get back up and become a better person... At least god blessed me with feelings and one day someone will notice this attribute. By the way I'm a NC person!! Thanks for reading and for giving me the chance to express my self!! Hope we all get blessed with someone soon!!! And that are hearts heel sooner than what we expected In the mean time hang on tight!! CHEERS!!
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