muse08 Posted November 4, 2009 Posted November 4, 2009 I'm in the process of "moving on". Was in NC for a minute(2 seven day NCs). Then he called yesterday...meant to mention that to you ANGEL1111. not many calls in general today anyway and thinking of him makes it worse. The sad thing about NC since i was the one to initiate it is that, we could have been seeing each other and holding each other by now, but I wasn't trying to hear that. Now we are distant now...i can't stand it! so he calls yesterday.I picked up and he says he was just checking on me to see if I was o.k....?....When I picked up he says a delayed "hey". so i said hello again and he says "hey it's me"...i almost said "me who?", lol. I think he tries to see if I'm with another guy. He said he loved me like 3 times back to back ,in hopes of me saying it back i think. I have said it back since the break up but this time all I said was "thank"..."thank you X"...i texted him back saying "thank you for checking on me" mainly b/c i think i felt bad for not telling him i loved him back. so he called back again instead texting. this time he asked some random question about something we had already discussed and finalized before...so my voice was kind of probably like "ahhhh, yeaaaahhhh? okkkaaaay...?" while he was talking. We ended rather quickly and he said he would be checking on me.I think he just wante to plant the see in my head. So I was ok, but today I'm not having such a great day. I'm thinking about him and how things used to be when they were more or less good, which still wasn't good enough, but we were still together and I wasn't feeling like this. I can't believe we're not together anymore. This is hard for me it really is. I want so badly to text him ...something...anything... shucks!!!! can i text him????????!
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