Alpha Female Posted November 3, 2009 Posted November 3, 2009 After MM breaking my heart this weekend and telling me although he has wanted to leave his M for a while now (before we ever met), he lacks the courage to do so, then asking me to forgive him for hurting me like this, etc. he texted me yesterday morning, and then again this morning. It really sets me back and annoyed the crap out of me, because I know his texts mean any of the following: 1- he is fishing to see if he can re-engage me as he regrets doing what he did 2 - he wants to make sure Im not super pissed to the point I might tell him W 3 - he has a guilty conscience for devastating me. I also think he is no longer entitled to engage with me at all. I wrote him back and told him that not to be harsh I need him to leave me alone. That he chose his W over me and dumped me. I then talked about some outstanding business junk we how we can resolve it (by me leaving his stuff on my front porch!) and that he could now go back to ignoring me and quit with the guilty conscience messages. We broke up once before and I told him not to contact me, and he honored that, so Im sure he will comply this time, too. As much as part of me would like to still hear from him as it somehow validates that he still cares, I really dont care what he thinks and what his motivations are. I just know I want him out of my life, and I know the worst thing I can do to him is to deny him all access to me. As messed up and tragic as he is, I know he loves me far more than I ever did him, so the most pain I can cause him is to cut him out for good.
Fallen Angel Posted November 3, 2009 Posted November 3, 2009 You seem to be doing better... glad you are on the road to recovery.
ladydesigner Posted November 3, 2009 Posted November 3, 2009 Way to go Alpha Female *clapping hands* I commend you on your decision to finally cut things off with your MM once and for all. He does not deserve you. Good luck on your new journey it is quite empowering to say the least.
gman36 Posted November 4, 2009 Posted November 4, 2009 if you love this dude, no contact is really hard. Want to know if he really loves you? date someone, I dont mean sleep with them, but just date someone if he loves you it will help him make his mind up really fast, if he is truly in love with you he will come to you.
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