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Been a year since the break up and i guess i didnt heal


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Today will now mark a year since my ex of 3 years left me.Since then i have been doing my best to try to heal and stay nc which i have held up for the last id say 5 months ?She would text me here and there but id never break nc cause i didnt want to.She kept mentioning shes expecting a kid in november but thought she was just trying to get me to break nc.Well last night fair enough i came accross her twitter update(Ya i know i sorta shouldnt have)I was just curious all of a sudden i saw her friend post saying (We just took her to the hospital she's gonna have a bundle of joy.I felt like a ton of bricks just hit me now only has it been a year but you already have a kid. :(

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AliveAndKicking

Hang in there. It takes time....

 

I know that different parts of me heal at different rates. Some things pass quickly and there are others that linger on and on and on....

 

I guess you learned your lesson about "fishing" huh? You caught a big one! I'm guilty of it too. It's masochistic. I have NEVER found out anything that didn't hurt. Derrrrrrrr.....

 

My X (second one back) got pregnent, on purpose, three months after our breakup. We'd been together almost 12 years. Yeah that kinda stung A bit considering she'd kept it hidden from me for the entire pregnancy! (we were in contact due to her daughter with whom I stayed in contact. We spoke tonight in fact!). It knocked me for a loop when she finally told me.

 

I've found that "fishing" has also, on very rare occasions, been just what I actually needed to move on. Even though it hurt when I saw that my ex had a new guy it solidified my acceptance and helped me to let go of those last little glimmers of hope. I would never recommend such a thing though. No way.

 

NC in both directions truly IS the best medicine. It took me a LONG time to really take that to heart.

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Tell me about it dude its really tough.I will admit I have done my share of fishing and where as it hurt like heck its also gotten me this far.I am now angry cuz where as I was sad I now did the match and the day I went to get my stuff and after she mantained contact saying we could be friends and she misses me.so this whole time she had a baby inside of her and I was being toyed with =(

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