Dark_of_the_Moon Posted October 31, 2009 Posted October 31, 2009 I wish I had never loved, I was happy once, before learning what love was and is. I never understood before that love could hurt so physically, it’s an emotion, how could it cause so much pain? Why can’t you shut it off? I never wanted love anyway. I want my logical self back again. I don’t want to be who I am now. I wish I had never met him and heard his lies. So sick of tears for someone who deserves none
Thebob Posted October 31, 2009 Posted October 31, 2009 Girl it had to happen at sometime, and you will find that right somebody soon and you'll be like I am glad I experienced love. IT's so warm and fuzzy but is a heart buster when it ends. Tough it up girl! Thebob
Limbo21 Posted October 31, 2009 Posted October 31, 2009 That's exactly what I've said before. I'd rather never have loved either, I have before but this pain is different. She pulled me in without me even realising it. I'd been single for 7 years! I'm so mad with myself We sound a right pair don't we
LucreziaBorgia Posted October 31, 2009 Posted October 31, 2009 That's why I think the saying "it is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all" is bullsh*t. More than half of my life would have turned out nearly 100% better if not for all of the loss, suffering and sadness I have seen at the mercy of "love".
Author Dark_of_the_Moon Posted October 31, 2009 Author Posted October 31, 2009 I keep trying to see 'why'. What am I supposed to learn from this? Why did I have to experience this hell. It was such a cruel game. I am so lost right now. Yes, TheBob, I am trying to tough up....but today I fell down and had a long crying jag again. I don't even want to think about having to live through this more than once.
onewillburn Posted November 1, 2009 Posted November 1, 2009 Yeah, this was definitely the relationship that broke me. I know I'll find somebody else at some point, but I don't know if I can go throw all of the motions again. I think that's just a feeling that you go through while getting over your ex. I learned a lot about myself and what I want through this relationship, which was essentially extremely dysfunctional. I know the pain you're feeling. It feels kind of tragic, not to be too dramatic, but it's such a strange feeling of loss you get when you break up with somebody you loved a lot. The feeling of being lost is something I've been trying to deal with for a while now. You just feel like you've been dropped into some foreign land and you don't know anybody or anything and you don't even want to. It absolutely sucks. But in time, you'll pull through. Don't even worry about love or finding somebody new right away. Let yourself grieve and focus on other things, especially things that will improve your life in some way. Stay busy, and maybe try to add a little creativity in your life if you don't have any already. Good luck and keep us updated.
JaggedRoad Posted November 1, 2009 Posted November 1, 2009 Yeah, it certainly does feel like you've been dropped off somewhere foreign. But eventually, you find your way around and get to know the locals, and find yourself at home.
Surfer Girl Posted November 1, 2009 Posted November 1, 2009 It takes time.... some longer than others.... and it hurts... time is the answer.... and as each passing day.... it will get better and worse... the ups and downs are all apart of the grieving process.... Listen to those that got thru it and never thought they would... that is the positive !!!!
Thebob Posted November 1, 2009 Posted November 1, 2009 It takes time.... some longer than others.... and it hurts... time is the answer.... and as each passing day.... it will get better and worse... the ups and downs are all apart of the grieving process.... Listen to those that got thru it and never thought they would... that is the positive !!!! Yep, just have to move on and that is it. Thebob
Author Dark_of_the_Moon Posted November 1, 2009 Author Posted November 1, 2009 Thank you all for talking to me. I tried not to post, I hate sounding so negative, but that is where I am right now. I know it is wrong and stupid. My friends are very frustrated with me right now.
SValentine Posted November 1, 2009 Posted November 1, 2009 I wish I had never loved, I was happy once, before learning what love was and is. I never understood before that love could hurt so physically, it’s an emotion, how could it cause so much pain? Why can’t you shut it off? I never wanted love anyway. I want my logical self back again. I don’t want to be who I am now. I wish I had never met him and heard his lies. So sick of tears for someone who deserves none Cheer up buddy. We go through all this crap because its a part of life. Some things work out some things don't. But just know that somewhere out there is someone who is going to make you 10 ten times happier than the one before did. Someone who won't break your heart. Someone who you might even end up marrying. So don't dwell on the negativity that this previous one has instilled in you. Look forward to your future. Everyone loves a positive person!
Author Dark_of_the_Moon Posted November 1, 2009 Author Posted November 1, 2009 Everyone tells me to 'smile' and 'go have fun'. Right now, nothing is fun though. I do the things that I used to do, but I honestly don't remember the last time anything was truly fun. I am trying to fake it, but it just is not working and I am not fooling anyone. I wish there was something I truly wanted to do, that I could do to distract myself. Also, it just seems like everyone I know is in LOVE and I just can't stand to be around them. I don't want to be around anything that remotely has to do with love and being around people who are in love is sickening.
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