Author twinklecat Posted November 8, 2009 Author Posted November 8, 2009 (edited) So he picked me up from work, not all to bad, managed to have a civil conversation, was in a really good mood too, he didn't seem to like that HA! Just kept going on about how ill he was boo hoo, he ended things while I was ill with the same thing. He also was asking questions about something and told him it was none of his business, his face!! He then wasn't very talkative after that and has gone straight to bed. I feel good! He's gone to bed, no sign of other male housemate and she is in bed to, thank god! A quiet house..this is something i'm looking forward to when I get my own place! [Edit] Okay, so just deleted all the emails I ever had from him. Kinda sad reading through the odd one them (didn't read them all) seeing happier times. Something that is blaringly obvious though is that he never put kisses etc, was always me doing that, funny it takes a time like this to realise this stuff, ho hum. Edited November 9, 2009 by twinklecat
Author twinklecat Posted November 9, 2009 Author Posted November 9, 2009 Okay I am INCENSED right now, did some snooping, I know I shouldn't have, and found some MSN conversations between female housemate and him from 13th october onwards LAST YEAR, constantly bitching about me, kissing, hugging, talking about him going over for hugs, calling her sexy, gah you name it, I feel ****ing sick. He moved her in here, we work together, and all the while this has been going on. He is ****ing coward, didn't even have the balls to admit theres anything going on, still says there isn't MY GOD I COULD KILL THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!
Author twinklecat Posted November 10, 2009 Author Posted November 10, 2009 (edited) Okay, so I have calmed down now my apologies for the above outburst. The past 24 hours have been quite an experience. Seeing these MSN conversations and the fact he is with her I have finaly realized my ex for who he really is and that I really AM better off away from him. He is a maniuplating and controlling egotistical man, and has been emotionally maniuplating me these past 5 years, into a person I do not recognize as myself. And I can see him doing the same thing to this female housemate. I do not feel sorry fo her though, she was supposed to be my best friend, and she's walking round like she has won...she has no idea the prize she has got, she's welcome to him! It's funny how it takes to discover this deceit that I never thought he'd do, to actually see who he is and what he's done to me. The best bit of all, it's absolute closure now. I don't want him in my life, he doesn't deserve to be. Moving on with my life and I am very excited! I am making plans for things, having friends coming to visit me, going back to see family for Christmas, I'm going to fly on my own, it scares me but I know I can do it! I've been sorting things out at work that I have wanted to change and do something about that I thought I couldn't, and ya know what I can and I did! I'm picturing what my new place will be like, also picking up old hobbies and just spending my time thinking about myself and what I want to do with my life. I know I'll still have bad days, more about me feeling like I can't do things, and this person I used to tell everything to, I will miss that. The relastionship itself, do I and will I miss that? Honestly, no. It was not healthy, I just couldn't see that. Thank you everyone for all the advice and support you have all given me, it has been much appreciated Edited November 10, 2009 by twinklecat
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