someonesangel Posted October 28, 2009 Posted October 28, 2009 This post made me start crying, I don't know why... Would I erase the memories? Honestly, I don't think I would. It didn't end well and I'm still hurt and it's horrible having to see him every week, but I don't think I'll ever forget the times we spent together. He made me feel alive, he made feel happy, and we spent a lot of good times together. But I don't know if the eventual hurt and tears are really worth it in the end. Tough question... And yours... made me. Talk about bittersweet. Ours was and still is ending badly, but when snow falls and I start recalling "anniversaries" I truly wonder if I will be strong enough to get through them. I can still feel him right there, insanity at its finest.
blinded Posted October 28, 2009 Posted October 28, 2009 No, I wouldn't want them erased. Good and bad memories, it's a lesson learned. How would I learn from my mistakes if they are forgotten?
CarbonCopy Posted October 29, 2009 Posted October 29, 2009 And yours... made me. Talk about bittersweet. Ours was and still is ending badly, but when snow falls and I start recalling "anniversaries" I truly wonder if I will be strong enough to get through them. I can still feel him right there, insanity at its finest. Awe. Mine has been over for 2 months and while I'm better than I was 2 months ago, I still have my bad days. It's REALLY, REALLY hard seeing him with his wife, especially when they're affectionate -- maybe I'm reading into things, but I swear sometimes the affection (on his part) is done purposely so that I could see. But I don't know. Perhaps he's not that devious. But it still sucks. And yet I still miss him and I can't help thinking about the wonderful times we spent together. Ugh.
sammyA Posted October 29, 2009 Posted October 29, 2009 No way. He is on a short list of my favorite people ever. I have never in my life been so lucky to know someone like him. Knowing what I know now, I would absolutely do it all over again. The most extreme heartache of my life...worth it. The only bad thing is he has set the bar so high I'm afraid no one will ever be good enough again.
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