Sephorelle Posted October 27, 2009 Posted October 27, 2009 This is long, but I'd appreciate anyone's input, feelin pretty down... I have been seeing this guy and things were great. I knew he "dabbled" in drugs (which I don't do) but I let it go as I didn't know him well enough to judge. As our relationship went on partying got more frequent, and his cocaine use got more out of hand. He stayed up all night a couple of times doing it and proceeded to go to work. The final straw was him doing it all by himself at 4 in the morning on a work night and I went to check to see what time he'd be coming to bed, just to find him watching porn that he had been watching for hours. A few times he got really angry and scared me, also had hallucinations once so I ended it. Initially he was breaking my character down and turned it around on me..He was extremely mean, but a couple days later realized he was in the wrong. He promised not to put me in the position of being around drugs again, and was very sorry for the way he treated me. This was 2 weeks ago. Right after he had been treating me like gold, although it was hard at times he wanted to party and I wanted to stay in. This past friday he insisted on going out to the bar. I had 15 minutes left to get ready, but he had asked that his sister drop him off before I was ready so he could get partying. As soon as he came back the cocaine came out with his friends. I of course was not impressed. I stayed upstairs while he partied into the wee hours. I found him on the couch passed out with porn on the tv, I woke him up and asked what he was doing? He yelled at me to get the f**** out of his house, and wouldn't talk to me all weekend. He came this aft to pick up all his things, and didnt say a word. Now, he just emailed me saying, "just so you know, what you saw on the tv saturday morning was at the end of a burnt DVD my brother had burned for me, so you punched me in the head for nothing, and now we're done. I hope you're happy." I argued my point that anyone would have reacted that way, and I was sorry. He said it was my fault because I was acting like a b**** all night and he never wanted to talk to me again. I apologized again and said I was sorry he felt this was worth ending out relationship over and his final remark was I just want to be left alone, eff you, eff this city. Go live your privileged life. I have better things to do than waste my time trying to live up to your expectations while you scrutinize everything i do. (Which I never did, this is unfair.) My feelings are I had every right to be upset, a promise about drugs was broken, he couldnt even wait for me to get ready, partying was the only thing on his mind, but its my fault and he hates me... Any one have any thoughts?
McGrupp Posted October 27, 2009 Posted October 27, 2009 your better off. really? porn and cocaine? i mean i dont know you, but im sure you deserve better.
Author Sephorelle Posted October 27, 2009 Author Posted October 27, 2009 I know I deserve better treatment, but when he wasn't partying things were so amazing. I'm just hoping that like two weeks ago when he cut me down he came back regretting the things he said..but this time he asked me to never talk to him again, so I suppose it is done.
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