angelface78 Posted October 23, 2009 Share Posted October 23, 2009 So i was 3 months NC and then broke it. I had gone into NC cold turkey since the breakup. Around the 2nd month it just got harder and harder. the 3rd month i couldnt take it anymore and i called him. I asked questions got few answers. Allthough i heard him choking up and his voice cracking...he didnt want to answer all of my questions (didnt think he would anyway) Since that day i thought i would not be able to do NC again. Calling him was surreal i felt like no time had passed. I got a "high" and the days that followed were good. Hope was at my door once again. I went back into NC but as the days went by the pain continued. I have since found out that his new girl changed her myspace status to IN A RELATIONSHIP. Everyone on here repremanded me for looking at their myspaces. I got such great advice. Well i am in FULL NC now. Not looking at their myspaces anymore. Its hard. I get the urge and not looking has me feeling like there is nothing left betwen us anymore (which is in fact reality) It burns deep inside and i feel like the breakup just started. Anyway 16 days NC since i called him and 2 days FULL NC not looking at their myspaces.BOTTOM LINE IS YOU GOTTA GET BACK ON THE NC HORSE!! THANK YOU EVERYONE ON HERE THAT HAS HELPED ME! I AM VERY GRATEFUL FOR THE SUPPORT!!! Link to post Share on other sites
GrayClouds Posted October 23, 2009 Share Posted October 23, 2009 Congrat and remember: Doing NC half ass is harder then doing NC completely. You are going to feel pain either way. The pain of half assed NC is the pain of re-injuring yourself. The pain that goes with doing it completely is growing pains of letting go, to be seen as making progress. . Your proving to yourself you don't deserve the hurt, keep it up. So what other kind things are you going to do for Angelface this weekend? Link to post Share on other sites
Author angelface78 Posted October 23, 2009 Author Share Posted October 23, 2009 Iam going to do all the girly things that i enjoy Gray Clouds. Going to get a manicure, pedicure, gonna shop. Get my hair trimmed..maybe color it. Go to the bookstore and pick up a book (maybe look for the one you suggested) hang out with some old friends (they want to go to a club..i dont know bout that though) The guy that is interested in me has the day off tomorrow and wants to hang out. (everyone on here said im not ready though) Hes a great guy...wish i was over the ex. I would give it a shot in a heartbeat. Then Sunday im going to lunch and a maybe a movie with 2 friends. Want to see that PARANORMAL ACTIVITY movie or the WHERE THE WILD THINGS ARE flick. Gosh Gray Clouds ive been laying in bed for months on the weekends. Im tired of it. Im the girly type that takes care of herself physically. I work out and take pride in my appearance. Lately ive been looking all busted up. Tired around the eyes. Hair all dull...;( I HAVE TO GET OUT OF THIS!!! What about you GRay Clouds what are you up to?? Link to post Share on other sites
McGrupp Posted October 23, 2009 Share Posted October 23, 2009 idk if i would see where the wild things are. it was way depressing. 2 of the monsters are in the midst of a breakup! i almost cried. but im on 22 days NC. stay strong Link to post Share on other sites
Author angelface78 Posted October 23, 2009 Author Share Posted October 23, 2009 Are you serious??? Geez really wanted to see that too. ;( Well Stay strong McGrupp!! 22 days is A LOT!!! Link to post Share on other sites
GrayClouds Posted October 23, 2009 Share Posted October 23, 2009 What about you GRay Clouds what are you up to?? I am looking forward to a good weekend of hard drugs and alcohol. Just kidding, soft drugs and wine coolers. Again, joking. Working out at a nature preserve, great for the social life... me , some small woodland creatures and couple hundred bashful deers. While I really do go for brown doe eyes types, like you I am not completely over my EX, besides I have hard enough time with the two lagged dears. On Sunday, the usual long run and looking forward to the Pittsburgh and Minnesota game. If this guy is interested in you now, just think how amazing he will think you are when your 100%. Right now you need be selfish and give all that love have inside to yourself. You have made a step forward, congratulations. Link to post Share on other sites
Author angelface78 Posted October 23, 2009 Author Share Posted October 23, 2009 LOL...soft drugs...lol!!! Sounds good. Working out in the middle of nature that sounds like therapy ...i need to start on that again!! Enjoy your game. its so hard to be selfish after being with someone for 5 years and your life revolving around them. Well we'll see what happens..but Yes i would want the new guy to see me at my best>>>im trying...I HAVE NOTHING LEFT WITH THE EX....i have made a small step...THANKS TO ALL OF YOU! Link to post Share on other sites
GrayClouds Posted October 23, 2009 Share Posted October 23, 2009 its so hard to be selfish after being with someone for 5 years and your life revolving around them. And possible that is one reason it why it didn't work, being a bit more selfish, can help a relationship to be balanced, help you get what you need, and help you make better choices about what and who is right for you. i have made a small step...THANKS TO ALL OF YOU! Nope, you are doing all the hard work so thank yourself for having the courage and strength. Link to post Share on other sites
Author angelface78 Posted October 23, 2009 Author Share Posted October 23, 2009 Thank you Gray Link to post Share on other sites
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