himynameischris Posted October 23, 2009 Posted October 23, 2009 Hi all, I'm new to these forums, and I'm speechless on how many people feel the same way I do, or worse. I'm completely tore up inside. I was dating my ex-girlfriend for a good 2 years when she decided to end it, and even worse, through a text message. Without any word or warning. Now, it's not the first time she has broken up with me, she's done it 2 other times. The first time only lasted for 20 hours at most. She did it again not too long ago, around July, and that lasted around 2 days. Every time she broke up with me was for one reason, when I find out later, it's because of another reason. Now I'm not the perfect boyfriend, I have my flaws, but I try, I really do. This time was about a week ago, a few days after my birthday! She was supposed to come out with me and my friends, including my brother who I haven't seen in years. She got sick, and couldn't make it, which was fine to me. As time went by throughout the week, I tried making effort to hang out or grab something to eat.. little things. She would deny me each time. She wouldn't call me anymore, rarely tell me goodnight, and barely spoke to me.. I finally asked her through text if something was wrong, and her exact words were: "Nothing's wrong, I think we need time apart for awhile." It killed me, because I text her back asking why, and what's the reason.. she gave me none. For the past week, I've been strong, I haven't called nor texted her. But it's hard, and it hurts, every little thing I do, I think about her. No matter where I go, or what I do, something reminds me of her... I have yet to cry, but I feel it coming. I want to be strong, but it's the hardest thing ever. I love her so much, and I miss her terribly, I have a hard time eating and sleeping. It drives me crazy, because every little thing about her, I miss. Her smile, her laugh, her crazy thoughts, and random sayings. I gave her my heart, and turned my back against the world. It bothers me not being able to speak to her, or even see her. I can't sleep without hearing her amazing voice telling me she loves me and goodnight. I just miss everything about her, her family, her pets, everything. I feel like I lost not only her, but my 2nd family. She is a GORGEOUS girl, and I mean gorgeous.. I was lucky enough to get her. I just sit and wonder if she even thinks of me, it's been a week without any contact, and it really worries me that she is really done. I sit here each night after work, and sulk.. I try not too. I go out, and laugh at work, although everynight when I get off of work, I come home to think about her, and it really bothers me. I know love isn't something I can get over in a week or so, I just need some advice. I don't want to call or text her, and seem pathetic. I want to show that I am a man, and can deal with these problems, but it's hard. Women don't look the same too me anymore, because I compare every woman I met to her, and it bothers me. Every now and then I go to our old spot at a lake near my house, and sit and think and feed the ducks.. I know I'm dragging this out too long, but it makes me feel better letting all of this out. I've tried calling all my friends to talk, but for some ironic reason, they're always on dates with some girl, and it hurts me even more. I just need help, some closure, some advice.. something. Again, I don't mean to sound pathetic, I'm just really really hurting. And hopefully someone can help me. Thanks!
muse08 Posted October 23, 2009 Posted October 23, 2009 come on...what did you do? there has to be some reason for the break up...you had to see it coming. just think back to the reasons she broke up w/you before...i'm being serious, not sarcastic. you gotta help shed some light on this situation
Author himynameischris Posted October 23, 2009 Author Posted October 23, 2009 Honestly, the reason she gave me the first time was because had to focus on school, and her life, and that I was going into my career, and she didn't want to stop me. I find out a day later, from her that the reason she broke up with me, was the lack of me taking her out, so I fixed myself, and took her out almost all the time. The 2nd time was because she felt that she didn't want a boyfriend at the time, and that she wanted a break. I'm being completely honest, and each time was completely abrupt!
bluestraps Posted October 23, 2009 Posted October 23, 2009 (edited) Id say just let it all out feel all the feelings anger sadness guilt , let it all out. She sound like a flake My girfriend of 10 years broke up with me after sleeping with my best friend. She told me over the phone the next day. And now im smashing large shipping boxes with a baseball bat in my basement to get over the anger hows that !! Of course she did this 4 other times , not with friends but oth.er people except for the first time. Edited October 23, 2009 by bluestraps
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