lemeng Posted October 20, 2009 Posted October 20, 2009 i am 25 she was 39 married and unhappy. her husband is a workaholic he takes her for granted we met online and after a few days i was in love i noticed she was interested and i told her how i feel. we started spending time together it was the best 2 months of my life, we would watch movies together and talk for hours. at some point we decided that we want to move in together and get married, she is from the US and i am from israel and this is the only way we could be together. i was willing to give everything i had to be with her : my friends my family my education just so i can be with her. she understood what it miens we picket a house to live in everything was going great. all we had to do is wait til she can leave him, she was in the end of her masters degree so she needed to wait til she finishes so she can leave. ( financial reasons ) while she was living with him she pretended to play wife she told me how she try's to avoid him and to avoid sex with him. i understood everything and i kept waiting til she leaves him we had a lot of fun together i loved her and she loved me. a few weeks later we had a fight and in the heat of the fight she told me she is pregnant, i ask her what she wants to do she said she don't know. at this point i knew it was over so i prepared for the worse and was hoping for the best. we kept talking everything was going great and then she told me her husband found out about the baby, i ask her what she wants to do now and she started crying and told me she cant give up on her marriage and this situation made her realize it. i understood and told her it is ok and i wish her a good life she was crying and saying how she cant imagine how she could live without hearing my voice, she wanted me as a friend. i agreed but after a few days it was too hard i called her and told her that right now we cant be friends she needs to work on her marrige and i need to work on life. i said goodbye she was crying and she coudent talk she said goodbye i told her one day we will talk again but it wont be today or tomorow. now i started with the NC and i just made my first 24 hours, it hurts but i know this is the only way i can heal. if i could come back to the past i wouldn't change a thing, i was happy and she gave me hope that there is some one outthare for me and i dont need to spend my life alone and i need to keep on looking for this special some one. well i would like to see what do you think about all of this and the way that i am copping with all of this ty in advance
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