Kaya Posted October 16, 2009 Posted October 16, 2009 ... of mental madness.. lack of decent sleep, forcing myself to eat, exercise, phone calls to and from friends, why, when, how, reading LS, offering lame advice, hoping, not hoping, letting go, not letting go, keeping busy, drawing, reading, walking, staring into space, crying. Now that I'm slowly coming to my senses - the past month seems horribly surreal and rather insane. The reality that it's over, the pain and realisation of this, is sinking in. It's the calm after the storm and it feels very empty. I hate Fridays - now is the time that he would be coming home and we would start our weekend together. Instead, I find myself writing this awfully depressing post with absolutely no idea as to how I'm going to handle the up's and down's that this coming weekend has to offer. I miss him, he misses me, I'm unhappy now, he is unhappy now, he says he doubts he will ever find someone that is more suited to him than me, but yet, he still feels that it's right to walk away. Arg, just needed to get that out. I need to push through this. I'm sure in a couple of hours I'll be feeling fine again, and then in another couple of hours I'll be crying again.
JaggedRoad Posted October 16, 2009 Posted October 16, 2009 Law Abiding Citizen is out today. I heard it has robots. Everyone loves robots, so go see it =D
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