mckeown89 Posted October 16, 2009 Posted October 16, 2009 I was with my GF for little under two years. We argued like hell sometimes over nothing, but their was nothing better than her. We were each others best friend did everything together. I was totally madly in love with her and i was under the impression she felt the same. Towards the end though we became quite controlling of each other, with me being the main culprit. It wasn't because i didnt want her to not have a life, i was jus afraid someone would rob her off me. This is down to me being insecure and her being so god damn fine. I was sometimes a selfish dick, like seeing my friends instead of her. And getting drunk alot. Yet we still were amazing together, and insanely in love. We argued sometimes passionately, but i thought we were perfect together. A couple of weeks before we split she started acting differently towards me she seemed distant etc I confronted her about it yet she said it was nothing. I tried to help her and talk about it yet still she said she was fine. Then one night she came round and said she seen no future for us, she jus wanted to find herself again. And she left. I was obviously a mess for a couple of weeks, i'd been with the girl almost everyday 4 2 years. After that though i started to realise why she might have left me. I took a long look at everything i did and realised how i should have treated her better. I think the reason i sometimes was a selfish dick, was because i could get away with it. Its been 2 months since we split, we sometimes spk on fcebook. I am dying for a second chance, not because i miss her, but because i honestly believe if i could be, how i wanted to be to her, we could be the most amazing couple ever. I know exactly how i could of made it work. And its such simple stuff, like giving her space. Letting her go out when she wants. I denied her this because i got more selfish and needy over time. I hate myself for it, yet i really believe we could work. She wants to meet me in about a weeks time, and she has told my friend, she misses me and loves me. And she never ruled out getting back together in the future. She says she isnt meeting to talk about the break-up , or to start over again. But i cant help but harbour false hope. Why should i do when i meet her?
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