confusedasever Posted October 13, 2009 Posted October 13, 2009 So I got a shot at a second chance. I am the dumper:( But I did it becaise I knew our relationship needed help. I didn't really think things would end. I moved out in 8 months ago and we have been seeing each other almost the entire time. We did end it briefly, for about 2 weeks with NC:( That's tough!!! I never want to go through it again. So anyway, I left him, so that makes me the bad guy. We both agreed we had some issues to work on. And I am happy to say that I did and still am. I have made some positive changes about my attitude and I am working on more personal goals. I am still frustrated though. I feel like it is all moving at his pace and is all on his terms. Which was one of the big issues I felt he had and had to work on. He really hasn't changed much at all. When we hang out I have to go to his house, even though I work earlier than he does. He goes hunting every weekend, which is fine by me, he always has. ( He does stay here on weekends he doesn't hunt) I feel like I am waiting on the back burner. I know he loves me, well he says he does and somewhat shows it. I know he is still hurt by my leaving. He doesn't seem to hear what I am saying though and I try to just shut my mouth and not bring it up, but it's like he draws it out of me on purpose but all he says is "oh pumkin" or "you worry too much" to anything I have to say. He doesn't give me much feed back to go on. A response that comes from inside his damn head would be greatly helpful. He is one of the simplest people on this planet I think. I go back and forth all day long. I hate that it takes so much focus from me which is one reason I push for this to go one way or another, so I can just get on with it. I really feel like I want to be with him but I need to keep my sanity! That 2 weeks sucked, but the passed few months sucked too. If I would of stuck to NC I would be more on with it I guess. Right now we are going back and forth on who is going to go to who's house...just pitily. I guess I am wondering if this is false hope. We were together 5 years and lived together for 4. Is it worth to wait for him to come around? I mean I want it to be on to the next thing because we are so just going with the flow right now. Anyway, I do love him!! Oh, and I am going to HIS house of course. Little ****! He is buying me lunch for sure!!!!!!!!!!
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